I broke my own heart
loving you.
SHAY
"Why did you stick up for him?" Hannah asks me, as we walk out of English.
"Because, He did nothing wrong." I say.
"But you're not like that. You would usually laugh and walk away. Or punch the person aswell."
"I'll punch you in a minute." I snap, she looks at me confused. "Jokes, love you." I laugh.
People walk quickly, getting away from us because they're scared.
Someone walks straight into me, knocking my phone out of my hand.
I hear it shatter across the floor.
"What the fuck?" I snap, picking my phone up. I see Jordan.
"What's wrong slut?" He asks.
"One, you fucking shattered my phone!" I show him my, now, shattered iPhone 7. "Also, since when was I a slut? Last time I checked you were the man whore using me for sex." I say.
He looks mad, almost guilty.
"Who's quiet now?" I hiss, walking past him purposely pushing his shoulder with mine.
I go to my locker, seeing Garret and Grayson.
"Hey." Garret says as I open my locker.
"What?" I snap.
"Is it that time of month?" He laughs. I glare at him. "Kidding."
"No, Jordan shattered my phone." I say, showing them my phone.
"Damn." Grayson says.
"He's a dick." Hannah says.
I'm honestly upset, I loved Jordan. I still do. I can't get over the fact he used me.
"Wanna go to the place, to talk?" Garret and Hannah say.
I nod, shutting my locker.
"The place?" Grayson asks.
"It's at th-" I cut off Garret. "It's somewhere only we know. It's OUR place." I stress the word Our.
He nods. I walk away with Hannah, mostly to the girls bathroom.
"Are you okay?" She asks.
"Yeah." I lie.
—
Me, Garret and Hannah sit down at our place. It's actually a big cliff edge where you can see the sun rise and set.
It's beautiful, the sky turns a shade of purple and orange with pint between.
Me, Hannah and Garret sit there for hours, just watching the sky and people below. It's almost as if you can control the world.
"I have to go guys." Hannah and Garret say at the same time.
"You guys have to stop speaking at the same time." I laugh.
"Bye." I hug both of them. "Love you." I say.
"Love you too." Garret says.
"Stay safe, baddie." Hannah says.
A few minutes pass, me watching the sun set.
"Hey." Someone says.
I recognise the voice.
"Is this your place?" He asks from behind me.
"Yeah." I say, still looking forward.
"Why here?"
"Because, it's easy to stand with the crowd. It takes courage to stand alone." I start.
"I feel like I control what I feel here, it's relaxing. It's hard to say what your feeling when you don't even fucking know. So here, I sort everything out." I say, Finishing the sentence as he sits down next to me.
"Are you okay?" He asks.
"Yeah." I look down. I'm sitting with one leg off the cliff and the other one up, resting my arm on it.
"No, you're not." He says.
I tear slips down my cheek.
"Physically , I'm not alone. But mentally, no ones in sight. I don't know what to feel. Kinda lost, Lost in my own thoughts. Sometimes the worst place you can be is in your own head. I keep everything in. I never tell anyone how I feel. Everyone thinks I'm heartless. But no, I have feelings. I'm just cold blooded."
"A cold blooded person always has a warm heart." Grayson says. He puts his arm around me, "you have me. Always talk to me."
I sniffle, "okay."
We watch the sunset and talk about how we feel for hours.
4:23am.
"Are you gonna go home?" Grayson asks.
"No."
"Where are you gonna sleep?" He asks.
"Here."
"No you're not. You're sleeping at my house."
"What? No." I snap.
"Yeah, you ARE. Come on." He grabs my wrist.
"Fine." I say, giving in.
—
"Sleep in these." He gives me a t shirt and shorts.
"Thanks." I say.
"No problem."
"I'll crash on the couch." I say.
"No, you're sleeping in my bed. I'll sleep on the floor if you're not comfortable with me in the bed." He insists.
"Sure." I say.
We go to his room, "you get changed. I need to do something." He says walking off. I don't know where he went since I was looking at my phone.
I quickly get changed, throwing my clothes into a corner. I climb into his bed,
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"Shit I have to brush my teeth." I say. I walk into the bathroom, seeing Grayson putting underwear on.
"Fuck!" I whisper-yell trying to run backwards. I end up tripping over, smacking my head and arm on the corner of the sink.
"Oh lord are you okay?" Grayson helps me up.
"Shit you've got a massive gash down your arm." He says, grabbing a towel. He places it on my arm, putting pressure.
"Is your head okay?" He asks.
"Um yeah." I take my hand off my head.
"It's bruised, bad." He says.
He gets a first ad kit. 5:15 am and I'm here mentally and physically dying.
He wraps the bandage around my arm, grabbing an ice pack for my head.
"Thanks." I say, him placing the ice pack on my head.
He looks into my eyes. Before we know it, our lips are connected. I feel sparks fill inside me. Butterflies fluttering around my stomach.
After about 12 seconds he pulls away.
"Did you feel that?" I mumble.
"Mhm." He kisses me again.
After that, we both fall asleep.
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Ohhh, they kissed.
Next chapter tomorrow.
Ily all
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