If It Had Gone My Way

Chapter 7: Avoid

Remember the time I said that I wanted to make a reputation for myself before school started? Well, it worked, I had a reputation, but not a good one.

Apparently, some kids called me 'bulldozer' for my tendency to knock people over. I don't even do it often, only yesterday because I was angry. So far, this year hasn't turned out the way I hoped for it to be. It wasn't a big deal, but I obviously wouldn't like the title.

When I walked to class this morning, I saw Jack, Aiden and Logan already seated. Jack wasn't normally sitting beside me. He traded spots with Aiden so he was a seat away, and Aiden was beside me. Oh god.

"Hey guys." I greeted, setting my books down. I felt a lot better. Well, better than yesterday. Nick and I had agreed to beg our parents to let us stay together. Their agreement seems unlikely, but it was worth a shot. I was clinging to the little hope left of us staying together, so I forced myself to think positively and not be such a downer.

A chorus of greetings passed my way. Aiden charmingly smiled at me, and Logan nodded. Jack barely glanced at me before looking back to Aiden and Logan. What?

As I sat down and looked around, I was glad that Ashlyn and Jess wasn't in my class this year. I don't know what Jess's problem is, or what I have done to her, but I'm happy that she's not in my class now.

I scooted to Logan. I poked his side, and he squirmed under my touch. He playfully glared at me.

"Do you know what's up with Jack?" I asked him. He glanced at him, and back to me. His head cocked to the side, and scrunched his nose with confusion.

"What's wrong with him? He's still normal. Well, as normal as Jack will ever be. The question is, how have you been handling things?" He asked, referring to my situation with Jess and my parents.

"I haven't really done anything with Jess besides my last talk with her at the lockers. As for my parents, they plan on separating Nick and I. Seriously, my parents are so frustrating. It's like they don't even care about us or how we feel." I frowned, blinking my tears away. Logan's lips were set in a straight line, and he looked down at his shoes before looking back at me with a hard expression.

"They do. They probably care about you, they just don't show it. Just be glad you have parents that care for you, even if they're not always home." He coughed at the last part, and looked away.

"I think you should confront Jess again. Ask her why she's doing this." He said, changing the subject. I chose to ignore his rapid change for now, and sighed.

"I already did, and she didn't even offer me a reason before, why would she now?" I asked. I just want to forget everything. Just relax and let my mind clear. Forget about Jess and my parents for now. I just want to focus on school and getting my grades up.

"Just try." He finalized, and turned to Aiden who tapped him. I opened my book, and began to read to pass the time waiting for my teacher. I was halfway done the book, and I really got attached to the characters. The thing is, I love reading but seeing the pages thin out really depress me,

knowing the book will be over soon. I literally get attached to the character for days, or until I read a new book and find a new character to get attached to.

When the teacher enters, I set my bookmark in, and place the book aside. My books are already open, and a pencil is seated on my left, while my sharpener is placed on the corner of my desk. I straightened my pencil, and listened to the teacher.

When lunch came, I sat with the guys who were already eating like pigs. I could feel someone's glare at me, but every time I turned around, everyone was eating among themselves.