My Life

Monday

Day 1!

This weekend I went to Wales with one of my bestfriends and i loved it! It was such a nice relaxing break from people moaning at me at home and all of the drama at school.

Today i went to school and I had to cook first period. Ughhhh, im really too tired to do anything at school, especially cooking. Anyways i think what i cooked turned out okayish. 2nd period i had Math which was eh because i hate my teacher, then i had break and me and my friend have a rule that if one of us eats then the other has to also, so i ate which is goooood :)).

3rd period i had Science but i didn't have my book since my sister decided to throw all of my school stuff on the floor leaving them dirty whilst i was away:)) so because of that i got a behaviour point which means if i get another one i get a detention.
4th i had Religious Studies which was okay but i keep on realising that my test scores are going down each time in every subject recently :(
At lunch i was at the point in which i wanted the day to be over. And 5th period was English which was just revision so it was fine.  Then i left and walked home with some friends.

So the things i hated about today were:
At school: this girl keeps on saying stuff about me behind my back to my best friend like "**** isnt even funny" or "delete ***** name out of your bio and replace it with mine" or "why do you even hang out with ******?"
And im litterally so pissed becuase everyone of my friends is going through something right now and we need to be there for eachother but she just has to cause drama, she doesn't understand what an impact it is making on me since i'm a very sensitive person.

At home: i don't really feel very happy at home anymore. Whenever my mum's boyfriend is here she takes his side on everything and focuses all attention on him, which is understanderable because she never sees him but the things he says and jokes about are offensive to me and most of the time he makes me upset by what he is saying and my mum just backs him up.
Also, I'm trying to not get upset at home or try to hide it more now but it's hard. Whenever I'm crying or upset about life and i tell her or crying in front of her it seems like she doesn't care. I get that she is stressed but she is really fed up with me and doesn't  want to deal with me, I can tell. If I'm crying she will hug me then leave, if I'm upset she will just yell at me to finish my homework.
I feel so alone at home even though i don't have my own space (my sister has litterally made my room hers and i can't object or my mum will get mad at me) .
I'm actually invisble at home too so yayy:))

So yeah my day and it will probably be as shitty as tomorrow.

~Smolbluebean  xo