My Life

Tuesday

I am currently at school. If i would like to be alone or can't deal with anyone or need to cry at school i usually sit in the toilets and wait for lunch or break to end.
Today i just want to be alone. I usually judt get away with sitting here all lunch.
So because I'm bored and don't want to listen to other peoples convos anymore, i am going to tell you how i do it.
How to stay in the toilets all lunch:
(I'm not saying you should do this at all cuz then you wouldnt be able to socialize, this is if you need to be alone)
1. You go to your friends first
You go up to them and if you feel isolated or you just want to cry then you can go to the toilets but if you actually think you will have fun and laugh with them then you can stay with them:))
2. lock yourself in a toilet closest to the end of the whole room/area
3. You don't make noise or come out until the end of lunch.
4. Activities!
I usually listen to my music with my headphones
You can also eat your lunch
You can go on your phone and try to make yourself better.
You can do homework n stuff.
5. ( always know when the end of lunch is just incase you don't hear the bell) when the bell goes you come out and wash your hands (so it doesn't look dogdy)

That's litterally it. Please don't judt go to go on your phone or whatever. Actually spending time with your friends is really good for you. But i go whenever things get a bit too much. So yeah i know my friends know that I'm in here if i tell them but usually i don't tell them.
Right now I've been alone a lot and i like being independant because i feel relaxed by not being judged.

Anyways i still have 15 mins so yeah. Listening to 'Not today' by TOP so ig its going good. After lunch we have form which is a group of a mixture of years in which we read and do quizes and go to assemblies together.
I wish my bestfriend was here because i know he is going through a lot at school also :((.
Yeahahahahah people are talking about guessing which toilet people are in uh oh. Oh well, i had English then Science and it was boringgggg.
I just had History and the Art but i do like Art because no body talks to me but i really can't draw and get frustrated. EVERYONE IS SO LOUD SHUT UPPPPP TEENAGE GALS.
i have 10 mins left and i have German 5th period, german is okay because i get to sit by my friendoooo but today we are in the lrc so oof i will have to walk alone.

This is a long chapter so this is all I'm probably going to write lmao. I hope you guys had a good day though:)) remember to dm me if you have read this ayyeee :)

see you xo

At home

So when i get home i watch a youtube channel called Bratayley because i can't watch it when it comes out because it comes out at 12am. I like to watch people the same age as me have a better life then me lmao.
After i watch all the vlogs i want to i either watch netflix on the tv or my laptop.
I am alone like everyday and I just want to feel relaxed at home so i can be prepared and be looked after for whatever challenge that will face me tomorrow.

~smolbluebean xo