Scarlet Zobelle's
It's akward initiating talks with Zero. Until now, three days have past and he's still mad at me. And it's driving me crazy. Totally crazy.
"Des, sa tingin mo pag galit sayo yung tao anong ibibigay mo?" Tanong ko.
Hindi kami parehas pumasok ng umaga mga tanghali na lang kami papasok.
"Siguro. Ibili mo siya ng paborito niyang pagkain."
Naglilibot kami, madami-dami din kaming biniling damit at pagkain. Magshashare na kasi kami ng condo ni Destiny.
Bago kami tuluyang umuwi ay dumaan mo ako sa isang pastry shop para bumili ng pretzels na balita ko ay favorite kainin ni Zero. I asked the workers kasi. Sabi nila pretzels. So bumili ako ng sandamakmak. Well mukhang masarap at mamahali ito . I'm sure magugustuhan niya ito.
Dumaan ako sa hotel ko at binaba amg pinamili kong gamit. Mamaya ay magiimpake na ako at bukas na bukas ay lilipat na ako kina Destiny tutal siya lang naman ang magisa.
Pumasok ako sa loob ng office at dumiretso sa office ni Zero.
"Zero, please accept my gift. I'm sorry for invading your privacy." I sincerely said while giving him the box of pretzels.
He opened it. He was disappointed. Bakit? Hindi niya ba paborito ang pretzels?
"Get out!" He shouted.
Pangilan na to. He's really mad. At wala akong ideya kung ano ang kinagalit niya? Tell me yun parin ba?
"Bakit ka ba laging galit sakin?!" Tanong ko.
"Dahil ba? Sa sinabi ko? Nagsorry naman ako Zero!" Sigaw ko ulit.
Hindi ko siya maintindihan. He's always mad at me since the very begining. Tumalikod siya sakin at hindi ako sumagot.
"Tell me! Zero Daves Fontanillo! What the heck is your problem!"
"You! You are my problem!" Sagot niya habang dinuduro ako.
"You remind me of her! Scarlet, you remind me of Cindy. The girl that I once loved"
So Cindy is really the girl he loved. Maybe he hasn't move on from her.
"Ano bang gagawin ko para mapatawad mo ako?" Tanong ko.
"Leave."
One word. But it has a great impact. I never thought that he will say that. Hindi na ako nagsalit at umalis ng office niya. Kinuha ko ang lahat ng gamit ko at nagpaalam kay Destiny.
"Zobelle, gusto mong samahan na kita?" Tanong niya.
Pumayag akong sumama siya. Dumiretso ako sa hotel ko para magimpake ng gamit papunta sa Condo niya. Hindi ko alam kung magtatrabaho pa ako sa companya nina Zero or babalik ng pilipinas.
"Zobelle, dadalhin ko lang ibang gamit mo sa taxi ha."
Tumayo siya at kinuha ang maleta ko. Pinulot ko ang dala-dala kong box. It was the box of letters that I received from Nixon when he was in Canada. He was 13 back then and I was 12.
Dear, Scarlet My Love
I already miss you. I will be back very soon. Please don't forget me and my promise. I love you Scarlet Zobelle Castillo-Sy."
Love,
Solomon Nixon Sy
I remembered every month I always received letters coming from him. But It ended when we both turned 19. He doesn't give me letters anymore. We seldom talk to each due to busy schedules. I felt like I wasn't important to him.
When I heard he will return in here the Philippines. I was excited. I was 21 back then. I already finished College.
I thought I was the reason why he will comeback here. I was wrong. He brought his new girlfriend. It was my cousin Seah! Fate is really playful. I never confessed my feelings for him. I was scared that time. When I was about to confess it, he was deeply in love with my cousin. Fate never heard my prayers. At the age of 25 Nixon and Seah wanted to get married. My family Gladly accept the both of them. I was happy and hurt.
Binuksan ko ang color black na envelope na naglalaman ng huling sulat ni Nixon sakin. It was the day before his wedding.
Dear, Scarlet my bestfriend.
Thankyou for being there in the past 10 years. Now that I'm getting married, I won't be able to be at your side. Finally Scarlet matutupad narin ang pangarap kong makabuo ng sariling pamilya. I want to thank you for being the friend that I always have. Remember the promise I told you when we were still young, I promised to marry you. But I broke that promise, because I'm not for you and you're not for me. Thakyou Scarlet for everything. Now that I have Seah, I will be the happiest person on earth. I'm still hoping that you will find your other half. I'm not that Guy Scarlet. And When that day comes, I will be happy because finally my best friend is happy. I love you my one and only best friend I loveyou Scarlet Zobelle Castillo.
Love,
Solomon Nixon Sy
Dati may Sy yun sa huli pero ngayon wala na. Bakit aasa? Eh wala na nga. I can't believe myself, bakit ba ako obsessed sa kanya? I wiped my tears when it started to flow. Ilang luha pa ba? Nakakapagod narin kasing magpunas mg luha. Pwede bang kahit ngayon lang maging masyaa ako?
Ngayon ko lang nabuksan yung letter niya. Masyado ata ako nasaktan ng mga panahong yun kaya di ko muna nabasa.
Binalik ko yung letter sa box at dinala ito kasama ng iba ko pang gamit. I saw pictures of us together. I made a collage when I was 18 years old. Bibigay ko sana kay Nixon pag-uwi niya. Hindi ko na siya binigay. I was disappointed at him.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit pumunta pa siya ng ibang bansa. Baka kung sakaling andito siya baka sakilang kami ngayon. Ako yung kinakasal at ako yung masaya.
Please fate if you really care, help me move on from him. Help me find the right person.
I closed my eyes and and open the door.
When I opened my eyes I saw him. Fate heard my prayers, it's really him.
