Scarlet Zobelle's
"Ladies and Gentlemen, welcome to the Ninoy Aquino International Airport. Local time is 11:30 am. Thank you for joining us." The pilot greeted with respect.
"Thank you Ma'am Have a nice day!" The stewardess greeted with professionalism.
I smiled back. Kinuha ko ang gamit ko at umalis. I can feel the hot temperature already. Hindi ko na itatagong maiinit. I took off my jacket.
Hindi ako umuwi sa bahay namin. Dumiretso na lang ako sa unit ko. I miss this place, bihira naman kasi ako umuwi sa bahay.
Ngayon ang family Reunion, ang pagkaka-alam ko magstastart siya exactly at 6pm, hindi ko na binalak sabihin sa kanila na umuwi ako.
5:30 na ngayon, nagligo at nag-ayos ako. Nagpalate din ako ng konti para grand entrance. I badly wanted to suprise them.
Nasa harap ako ng venue. I parked my car. Lumabas ako sasakyan at pumasok sa loob.
They were all shock to see my stunning face. Namatahan ko agad si Nixon, she's with Seah as always.
"Zobelle, my dear. Buti na lang at umuwi ka." Salubong sakin ni Mommy.
Hinalikan ko ang pisnge niya pati ang kay daddy. Binati ko rin ang mga kamag-anak namin except for Nixon.
Konti lang ang dumalo around 50 person lang ata? Umupo ako sa harap ng upuan nila Nixon and Seah.
"I brought champagnes." Sabi ko habang nilalagay ang tatlong bote sa lamesa.
"I didn't know that you drink, Scarlet." I heard Nixon's Voice one again.
You know nothing about me Nixon. Sumala pa nung una, you really didn't bother to ask me. You didn't bother to ask what will I feel if I lost you. You will never know how hard it was.
I just smiled to him. It's not comfortable for me to just smile although I'm hurt.
"How's your life in Paris, Zobelle?" Tanong ng isa naming kamag-anak.
"It's good, better than living here." I said while faking a laugh.
Ako lang ang tumatawa, walang ekspresyon ang mga mukha nila ngayon.
"What's wrong? Aren't we having fun?" I sarcastically asked.
Tumayo si Nixon at hinawakan ang kamay ni Seah. I was pissed, mukhang may important announcement sila.
"Everyone, Me and Seah have an important annoucement." Sabi ni Nixon.
"We are going to be parents!" Masayang sabi ni Seah.
Some of my relatives started clapping. All of the were happy about the news and I can sense it from their faces. As much as I wanted to congratulate them but I can't. In every word I speak I know I'll get hurt.
Narinig ko ang mga sigawan ng iba naming kamag-anak. Lahat ng atensyon nila nakabuhos kina Nixon. Everyone was happy for them except for me.
I excused myself lumabas ako para magpahangin. Mukhang wala na talaga akong pag-asa sa kanya, simula pa nung una.
I guarantee that I don't have a chance. It's fine, I just need to move on. Gagawin ko lahat para makalimutan lahat. At sa oras na mangyari yun I'll focus my love and attention to Zero.
"I don't know you anymore, Scarlet." I heard his husky voice.
Nilingon ko siya. Diba dapat ako ang nagsasabi niyan? Hindi ko na siya kilala, he's not the same guy I used to know.
I felt his hands on my shoulder. I missed this. When we are still young and innocent. I don't understand him anymore.
"I should be the one saying that, Nixon. Ikaw yung nagbago at hindi ako. Kung nagbago man ako, it's because of you." Sagot ko.
Nagulat siya sa sinabi ko. Well he deserves that for not returning the love that I give.
"Scarlet! Ano bang problema mo? You keep avoiding me!" Sigaw niya.
Kailangan kitang iwasan Nixon, mahirap pero yun yung dapat eh. I need to avoid you. Kasi pag hindi, natatakot akong bumagsak, I mean bumagsak na pala ako. Sa ngayon hindi ko kayang bumagon.
"I'm not avoiding you, Nixon. Please leave me alone." Sagot ko.
"Tingan mo nga yang ginagawa mo Scarlet, hindi ba iwas ang tawag jan!" His voice cracked while saying my name.
Bakit parang sakin pa siya galit? Ako lang ang may karapatang magalit dahil ako ang nasasaktan.
"Oo na! Iniiwasan kita Nixon! Bakit? Anong pake mo? Wala naman diba? All this time Nixon, you really don't care. Because you only focus on Seah! Nixon, stop acting like everything is okay! It's not okay! Kung sayo ay okay sakin hindi. Kaya please, Nixon stay away from me. Kahit ngayon lang Nixon." Sagot ko.
Umalis ako at iniwan siya. I cried once again. I can't control myself. I can't refrain myself from crying.
Pagkatapos nun ay dumiretso na ako sa bahay. Hindi na akong nag-abalang dumalo sa party.
Kinagulat ko na lang, naka-uwi na rin pala sila. Kasama nila Mommy ngayon si Seah sa living room.
"Zobelle, nakita mo ba si Nixon?" Tanong sakin ni Seah.
"He's your husband not mine. Why would I know." Sagot ko.
I know I was rude, walang kasalanan si Seah dito. Hindi ko na kilala ang sarili ko. She is my cousin for God's sake. We share the same blood, the same name. I should be nice to her. Pero anong ginawa ko? I keep hurting everyone just because I lost the guy I love and cherish.
Umakyat ako papuntang kwarto ko at iniwan siya. I'm tired of all the drama. Maybe going back to the Philippines is a bad Idea. Tingan niyo naman unang araw ko palang dito madami nang nangyari. Pano pa kaya pag-tumagal ako dito. Kakayanin ko lahat ng ito, I just need to heal.
Fate doesn't really care if I got hurt. It hurts everytime and I'm already tired of it. Why does fate always do this to me. I already been through worse. I don't deserve anything like this. I dont fucking deserve this to get hurt and drown myself, in my tears. I already cried enough. I have no tears left. I need to be strong, but I dont know how to do it.
