Hey there.
Its been a long day
I miss her so much,
I just want to be able to hear her voice again. To see her beautiful smile again, to be there for her on her bad and good days again....
Her parents don't like me I think.. And that's okay. I'll prove them wrong. I have a Nick for that, proving people wrong. But until then, being away from her is killing me... Literally. I have new scars. I have new methods of dealing with this, and they aren't healthy. I can't believe I've done it... But I just can't stand being away from her without any contact for the next 2 years and 10 months. Its killing me. If this keeps up I'll probably die before the first year ends. I just want this pain to go away. I want to feel better. I want to not be like this. I love her so much and this love will never go away. Ever. I still have her ring. I will always it. My best friend told me to pawn it so I could get money and buy him weed. Which infuriated me. I'd never pawn the sole promise of my love for her. Ever. I could never do that I'd rather die. I miss her.. I've said that but I really do. Her cute eyes. Her beautiful smile. Her angelic voice. Her expressive personality. Her everything. I miss it all...
To her:
Babygirl, if you are reading this. I'm sorry. I can't move on. I can't see myself with anyone else but you. We talked about so much. Our future, our past, what we want, how we want it, marriage, kids, how we wanted to br eachothers firsts... a beautiful future... I can't see that with anyone else. You're my one and only. My soulmate, and it sucks that we have to go through this, but I really want you, so I am gonna try my absolute best to be with you babygirl I can't see it any other way. I love you, I miss you, more than anything...
Until next time my love... 😫😫💖😘
Forever and Always
Tyler Peerenboom
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My Diary
Non-FictionThis is my Diary. I've never had one but someone gives me so much inspiration that I thought I'd try it.
