Until Now

Chapter 12: All I know

"It's the possibility that keeps me going, not the guarantee."

Nickolas Sparks

Ahmar's POV:

Its has been a long time since mom died. She died in November so I had many holidays after her death. I miss her every day. But that doesn't change the fact that she is not here.

Sometimes I do bad things on purpose. Like not brushing my teeth at night, not making my bed after getting up in morning hoping that, from nowhere mom will come running, scolding me for what I had done. That didn't happen.

Rameez plays with me. He is really good at football and I am pretty good at cricket. I think I want to become like him when I grow up because he is just...... I don't know what he is but I am going to become like him.

Safiya is really naughty. Sometimes she irritates me a lot. She wants me to play with her dolls and she even wants to get me married to one of her dolls. Her dolls are pretty though.

I have been in Pakistan for the last three weeks. I do miss home but this is my better home. I belong here I feel. My Urdu has improved very much. I can even write a story in Urdu. Last night, I talked to Peter. He told me that Marry poured gravy on their Grandma. We all laughed.

Other than Rameez I made some friends too. They think my eyes are really pretty but I don't agree with them. Rameez's mother, Haseena auntie's eyes are much prettier.

Pakistan isn't how I thought it would be. It is different and beautiful in its own way. I play a lot. I even learned how to bat. Before I always used to be the bowler. Now, I can bat too.

There is this thing that I don't know want to call it. Grandma thinks its called sense of being home, being in Pakistan.

"Chantel wake up you are going to be late for your class." Minha yelled at her. "I don't want to go to the university. I want to miss a day." Chantel whined. Her eyes were puffy and red. "What will everyone think when they see me? I mean I and James have been together for the past three years and Its my last year and I don't know what to do," she cried while looking at Minha's reflection in the mirror.

"Its okay shh shhh." Minha cooed her while holding her close to her. Chantel had been in a pit lately. Her long-term relationship ended when her fiancé said that they were not compatible anymore. James was Chantel's class mate and they decided to be together in their first year of university.

"When I came to the university I thought that I am not going to fall into any shitty relationship. But then I don't how it happened with James I felt I couldn't wait for the university to end." This is how Chantel used to describe her love story.

The fact that they had gotten engaged just six months ago was also extremely painful for her. She was already saving money for marriage and apartment. But life has a strange way of breaking dreams.

Minha didn't know how to pacify her roommate. She herself had never been in a situation like this. And she also never had friends who had to go through this.

"No, you should not miss your class for me. Its stupid." Chantel said when she heard that Minha wanted to skip class for her. "Your professors won't like this and its probably an idiotic thing to do. Just call Ann from 2nd floor. I'll be alright." She assured Minha.

"You sure?" She questioned her. "Yeah. No go before you get late." She yelled while pushing Minha away from her. Minha picked her bag and waved goodbye to her. She walked to the main desk of their hall and left a message for Ann.