Daneen.. Her LOVE Story

Consequences...

"Daneen thank God you are awake, how are you??" I rushed to her as soon as I heard that she has opened her eyes.

I wanted to hug her close to me and never let go. And told her every single thing about me but never in my dream have I imagined that she would say this...

"Zaky.." her voice was hoarse..

"Yes baby.." I leant in close and rubbed her forehead.

"I wanna go home." She said blankly. Her spark was missing.

She will be fine. I will take good care of her. I thought and replied,"Yes sweetheart, let me ask them about your discharge and we will go home." I stood up immediately to make her wish come true. But she held my hand.

"I WANT TO GO TO MY HOME.. MY HOME." she said every word separately emphasising the word 'home' and I stopped in my tracks.

What does it mean... home.. why is she behaving like this.. Daneen you are leaving me now... i thought now we have come to terms with each other and now you are talking of leaving..

I wanted to ask her many questions but I didn't voice my thoughts. I didn't even look at her direction again. I didn't want to. Just a single glance and I would lose all my courage. I just acknowledged her and walked out of the room.

And then I cried. Yes, ZAKY SHAH cried. Who used to make fun of everyone's miseries , cried. Who used to think that love only exists in movies, cried for his love. Who used to make fun of every relation, cried on his relationship with her.

I couldn't tell her what she has become to me. I couldn't tell her how her presence has effected me. I couldn't tell her that her absence would kill me. I couldn't tell her how she has pulled me out of the well of darkness, that I was in. I couldn't tell her anything. I was a broken man. And (after God) only she has the power over me. She could make me happy and miserable at the same time.

But I was not angry at her. She has all the rights to do whatever the hell she wants. She never asked me anything. And the least I could do, was to listen to her.

Later that night, I told her that I have booked her tickets. But the news didn't bring a smile on her face. I thought she would give me some reactions. But she was too silent and her silence was killing me from inside.

"Daneen, I'm sorry but you will have to wait for some time. The doctors won't allow you to travel in this condition. Spent a week or two in my house and then you can go." She looked up at me with a dark look. I couldn't tell what was that. I wasn't good at reading other's expressions and her expressions were too difficult to decipher. May be she wanted to go early and the thought hurt.

"Khala.." okay so she cared about my mother but not me. Normally she called her mom but I think she didn't want anything to do with me that's why she was leaving a lot of hints.

"I will take care of her, I promise." We both looked at each other and that was the last time we shared a look. After that, it was all annoyingly odd between us. We talked only about the food and stuff.

She spent two more days in the hospital. And eight days with us. Me and mom took good care of her but she was not her normal self, as if she was counting the days to go to her family.

I told mom about her and she created a scene, I didn't realise that she would behave like this..

"Mom, why can't she go. It's her home after all." I shouted, I was loosing it. Mann... I can't handle women.

"Who said, she can't go. But she won't go alone.  You go with her." She said slowly coming to me.

"I have work. I can't take a vacation now. You know how these things are." I lowered my tone and hung my head. I didn't have any energy left in me..

"Zaky, did you guys have a fight? I thought you both will come happily and seeing her injured wasn't enough that now you are telling me that she is going to her home, all alone."

I forced a laugh.. "Come on mom, stop watching too many dramas. I am just fulfilling my wife's wish. I figured that she is missing her family and booked her ticket as a surprise and you are behaving like everything has ended between us."

"Zaky!! Don't even talk like that. May you two live happily always. And yes you can give your wife a surprise. I'm sorry, I overreacted." She smiled at me and walked away. I knew that she has suspicions that something is going on between us but I let her think whatever she wants.

She is going in two days and even the thought of her leaving, was killing me. I had no idea how am i going to survive this. I was feeling all kinds of pain that I've been causing others. Karma was hitting me awfully hard and rough but I have accepted my fate. I won't stop her, this is the last thing I could give her properly and I won't ruin that.

I helped her in her packing. She was behaving like a robot. She wasn't speaking and not eating. Yes, I have noticed her crying during her prayers and I knew I was the reason behind her tears.

Later that night, I was with Brian and he was trying to give me hope that I have lost.

"You two are made for each other, man.. I don't know why don't you just stop her and tell her everything." Brian said for the fifteenth time

"Please stop this made for each other bullshit. And I'm not telling her anything. She wants to go and I'm letting her go that's all." I was getting irritated, every single someone mentions her and all that pain resurfaced, my heart was unable to take all of this. She is going tomorrow and this is our end. Not everyone gets happy endings.

"Where are you going now?" Brian asked as I stood up to leave.

"Where do you think, I'll go at this time of hour?" Sarcasm was clear in my tone and he was paying for being my best friend. Brian didn't say anything in return.

I came home and found her on the bed. She wasn't sleeping but she ignored me as she has been doing for the couple of days. Her bags were packed and ready to go.

She is going tomorrow...
I won't be able to hear her voice
She will not be here in this room.. in my life..

These were the only thought I had. Before I drifted to sleep.

I'm here finally... I'm sorry guys i keep you all waiting but I really had no choice.