Whirlwind//G.D & I.M

12

Ivan's p.o.v
"Is there anything I can do?" I asked, Lucy sniffled slightly and shook her head "I just want to be alone" she told me, I was taken aback, although nodded anyway. Normally Lucy needs me in situations like this. "If you start to feel panicky again then phone me please." I said as I stood up and walked out of Lucy's room with worry and concern filling my head. I walked downstairs and went to open the door, as I walked towards it Lucy's mum cane over to me "Oh you aren't leaving already are you Ivan?" She asked, I nodded "yeah, I would love to stay longer but I should get home" I wanted to tell her that Lucy had a panic attack but I knew Lucy wouldn't want her to know "Oh that's a shame, well have a nice day" she said smiling "Thank you Carol, you too" I said before opening and walking out her house, shutting the door behind me.

On my way home I couldn't help but worry about Lucy, she was the main thing on my mind. She had a panic attack out of nowhere, which isn't that odd for her but normally she would tell me what was wrong. And then she said that she was sorry and she was a bad girlfriend, which she should know is not true. She's never said anything like that before. I don't know why she would think that. As much as I tried to get it off my mind, I just couldn't. Why didn't she want me there? Why didn't she want me to stay and help her like always? I couldn't get the questions out of my head, I decided to text her "I know you told me that you wanted to be alone but I can't stop worrying about you. I hope your okay and that soon you can tell me what's wrong, I love you x" I sent the text and waited for a reply whilst I walked home.

I walked through the door and slumped down on the couch, Emilio walked into the room and sat down next to me, "hey man" I just sat and said nothing back, so he spoke back up "yooooo dude" I just looked at him and sighed "what's wrong Ivan" I sighed once again and looked at him "Nothing I'm fine, just tired" I told him, he knew I wasn't fine but changed the subject anyway "how was Lucy" he asked nudging and teasing me, I rolled my eyes "she's fine" I said, he was still teasing me by winking and nudging, normally I would laugh along with him but I just wasn't in the mood today. Emilio clearly caught on to this "okay seriously what's wrong" I knew I couldn't keep this from him so I just explained about Lucy having the panic attack and what she said to me. Although Emilio reassured me that she's probably fine and to just give her space and wait for her to reply. I knew he was right, I just wish he wasn't.

After around half an hour my phone vibrated, Lucy was still on my mind and I just hoped it was her. I unlocked my phone and clicked on messages. It was Lucy. I smiled slightly although frowned once I opened it "thank you, but I'm fine x" is all she said. She was never this blunt over message. Something was definitely wrong. Did I do something? Did I do something to upset her? I decided to ask "no you're not fine, remember, I know when  you're upset. What's wrong? Have I done something?" I sat and anxiously waited for a reply, she saw the message and soon enough was typing a reply. "Ivan I told you, I'm fine. You haven't done anything wrong" I groaned loudly and hit my hand against the pillow next to me. "Stop being blunt Lucy. I've clearly done something wrong so just tell me what I've done, I want to help you, you are the most important person to me" again she read it straight away although waiting a few seconds before typing a reply. Soon enough she replied saying "it's nothing you've done, it's something I've done... I just hope you can forgive me because you're the most important person to me too" I just stared at the screen blankly. What did she mean it's something she's done? "What are you talking about?" I asked, I was starting to get impatient "I'm not talking about it over message" now I was getting suspicious, what did Lucy do that she can't tell me over message? "Then come to my house and tell me" she opened it but didn't reply "???" I sent again, she started typing "when can I come over?" She asked, I sighed, what was she gonna tell me? "Now" I replied, she read it and replied "I'm coming" my nerves started to rise, what did she do?