Ethan Freaking Dolan

Feelings

(Ayo before the chapter starts I just wanna say that I have a song that brings everything together in one scene. The song is called A Thousand Years by Christina Perri. You can play it on YouTube, spotify, or apple music. I'll leave a note when to put the music on. Okay, enjoy💕)

"Just go kill yourself already."

"You're no good to anyone here."

"Just realize the fact that Ethan don't love you."

I sit up in bed gasping for air. My heart flutters from my chest as I look around my room and see Liza sleeping peacefully next to me.

Fucking nightmares.

I sigh and get up from bed. I walk over to my bathroom and turn on the sink. I splash my face with cold water and look up at the mirror.

I take a deep breath in through my nose and out through my mouth.

"It's okay Adrian. It was just a dream." I say trying to calm myself down.

I look down at my hands that were shaking profusely and sigh.

I go into the medicine cabinet and pick out one of the various prescription bottles. I open it and take out one of the little white pills for my anxiety attack.

I go down to the kitchen to get a glass of ice water. I swallow the pill snd chase it with a chug of ice water.

I look at the clock on the stove.

5:35.

I sigh and decide to start getting ready. I go up to my bedroom and still see Liza sleeping.

"Liza wake up." I say as I shake her arm.

"What? Adrian are you okay?" She says startled.

"Yes I'm fine. We have school remember?" I say as I laugh at her.

"Oh yeah!" She gets up from the bed and stretches.

"Why so early?" She groans as she plops back onto my bed.

As soon as she makes contact with my bed, the bed shifts down and cracks.

"Oh my god, I just broke your bed." She gasps as she sits up with her hand over her mouth.

"No you didn't." I sigh.

"Yes I did, did you not-" She says as I cut her off.

"It was broken before... We broke it." I say as heat rises up to my face.

"What do you mean we bro- oh... You guys broke it..." She says as her eyes widen.

I nod my head and a slight smile makes its way to my face as I remember exactly how it broke.

"It's okay I'll get a new one after school." I say as I smile at her.

"Hehe... I like hearing you say after school." She says as she giggles.