It Started With A Kiss, How Did It End Up Like This? (Muke)

Chapter 19

I was released from the hospital. Although, that was last week when I sat in a hospital bed. Now, I sit in the bathroom and stare at the damage I had just done. I was home alone. I began to cry looking at my bloody thighs and wrist. I was so upset at myself. It's an addiction and I just can't stop. I mean look at me. Do you see anything perfect? No. Yeah, nobody finds perfection in me. I try so hard to be perfect. Why can't I be perfect?

I began to hear the front door knob and cleaned quickly. After 5 years, you learn how to clean quickly.

I pulled back on my bracelets and skinny jeans and walked back into my room. I laid on the bed and opened my phone. I opened Twitter and looked through my notifications.

Fatass

Cut

Kill yourself

You're the only member of 5SOS I hate

I groaned in frustration and closed twitter. Luke walked in my room and cuddled to my side. 

"Hey Mikey." He said putting his head on my shoulder.

"Hey." I replied going on instagram.

"What'cha doing?" He asked

"Going on Instagram." I said opening my notifications.

Shut up Michael, nobody likes you. Do the world a favour and kill yourself. You're the most hated member, they could easily replace you.

I stared at the comment and forgot about Luke next to me.

"Hand me your phone and let me read that." He said holding out his hand, showing he wasnt kidding.

"It's nothing, don't worry about it." I said

"It's not nothing, Mikey. Now please just hand me your phone." He said and I handed over the phone. He opened his phone and opened up to the comment. He was typing rapidly on his phone and I was worried to what he was saying. He finished and I took my phone back to read what he wrote.

Telling someone to kill themselves can get you in prison. And if he did you would be charged with manslaughter. And saying nobody likes him is wrong. I do like him, in fact, love him. He isn't the most hated member, there isn't one because all of us are humans like you. Michael could NEVER be replaced. If he wasn't here anymore I wouldn't be either. I love Michael. Now you can stop wasting your time because neither him or I care about what you say.

I sat speechless. "Y-You didn't have t-to do that.." I whispered

He snuck his arms around me and squeezed me tightly. "Of course I didn't. But I did. I love you Michael Clifford. Everything about you. How you dye your hair so often. Your perfect eyes. How good you are at singing and playing guitar. How you are good at cuddling, hugs and everything. I love you so so so much. I need you to always know that."

"I love everything about you too. Your eyes that seem like you could dive in and swim. How you care so much if your hair is flawless. How often you wear a band shirt. Your lip piercing. How happy you make me and mean so much to me. God damn it Luke. I couldn't imagine life without you. You mean everything to me. You always find a way to make me smile and you always care so much about me. It makes me feel I'm loved. I've never felt this loved before by anyone. I love you more than anything. I love love love love love you so so so much." I said kissing him. He kissed back and it was a soft warming kiss.

====next morning====

I woke up and Luke's grip was tighter than before we fell asleep. I got out of his grip and walked into the living room. Ashton was sitting there watching some show.

"Hey." I said sitting down.

"Hi. How are you doing?" Ashton asked 

"Fine, you?"

"Alright. Wanna go out and get breakfast with me and Cal?" He asked

"Nah, I'm good, thanks." I said smiling

"You sure?" He asked

"I'm sure." I said

"Alright." He said getting up and him and Calum walked out of the house. Luke ran into the room with his phone in hand. He was panting.

"Michael, we may have a problem."