Shatter Me ( cameron dallas )

Chapter 25 - I Missed You

Cams hands fall to his sides. Taylor clenches his eyes shut as to not make any of the tears in his eyes fall down his cheeks. I stand, helplessly, staring at them both. I can't stand this anymore.

Suddenly a pair if arms wrap around me from the side and I can't do anything but be pulled away from the two. I stare in utter pain at the two. I'm pulled away into the car and before I know it I'm in the hotel room, back in my corner.

I wish carter was here.

I let the tears stream down my face. My legs are pulled up to my chest. Nash brings me water and sits next to me. I ignore the water and stand up. I look down at Nash and he shakes his head. He knows what I am thinking. I nod. He stands up and grabs me pulling me into a hug. I take in his smell. I then pull away from him and rush into the bathroom, locking the door.

I search for a blade frantically. I remember the one in my back pocket and bring it out quickly. I hear multiple hands banging in the door and muffled voices telling me to stop and unlock the door. I hear Cam, Taylor, Nash, And all the rest. I cry as I cut my forearms multiple times over and over again. The blood streams down my wrists. I slide my self down the wall to the floor and set my blade at my side. I cry and stare at my numb forearms, shaking.

I hear the lock turn and in comes Nash quickly. He grabs the first-aid kit and brings out some things and does whatever to my arms. He ends up wrapping them with something and pulling me into a hug. I ignore the countless attempts from Taylor and Cam to talk to me.

I go and sit out on the deck. I hear Nash yelling at the two boys inside. I ignore it and slowly drift off to sleep.

~•*•*•~

I open my eyes. I'm in a place full of bright colors. I have no idea where I am but I hear a voice I haven't seen in so long.

"Hey, Alia." He says. I stand up and turn around to the face him. He wears a beanie exactly like the one he gave to me. I smile. My cheeks don't feel wet. I run forward and hug him. Taking in his smell. Cinnamon and forests.

"Hey, Carter." I say almost in tears. "I missed you so much."

"I missed you too." He says.

"Am I dead carter?" I ask looking up at him. He looks down at me and shakes his head.

"No, but I thought you could come see me for what you would think as a dream." He says. I smile.

"I wanna do this every night, Carter." I say.

"I can only do this once a month," He says, frowning. I frown and nod. "Now, I have to go. You're waking up. I love you Alia," he squeezes me and releases.

"I love you too,"

~•*•*•~

-Two Weeks Later at MagCon-

Right now I'm sitting on the ground behind the stage that the boys are on. I pull on my jacket even though it is hot in here. I have to hide the almost 500 scars that are on my arms. I've cut so much in the past two weeks and only once was I caught and stopped. Shawn stopped me that day. I haven't seen Carter since my dream. I miss him even more now. Cameron and I have split for the time being. I usually stay with Nash, shawn, or Matt. Cameron has been obviously sad lately. The fans have gotten worse about me ever since I broke up with him. A new boy has joined us for this MagCon. His name is Jacob. He sings and he's very kind.

I don't bother taking out my phone because it will only show me the hate I get. I lost even the few kind tweets used to get.

"Alia?" I lift my head up to see Matt. "We have something to show you, will you come?" I nod. He helps me up, knowing how weak I am these days, and we carefully go to the stage. I sit down in a chair at the edge of the stage and see the boys, and Mahogany, all lined up in front of me. Matt joins them. They are lined up. The line goes Jacob, Nash, Cameron, Mahogany, Jack J, Jack G, Hayes, Matt, Taylor, Shawn, and Aaron.

"So we have a poem and we're gonna go down the line with each person then well all say the last line." Shawn explains into the mic.

"Hush little baby,"

" don't you cry."

"Put down the razor,"

"Put down the light."

"I know it's hard,"

"But you'll win this fight."

"We'll be here,"

"through thick and thin."

"Have no fear,"

"Find your strength within."

"We love you, please stay strong."

I find myself smiling. It's a real smile. One that I haven't had for awhile. I notice how Cam looks for the first time in awhile. He has bags under his bloodshot eyes. He seems to not have much sleep. He stands, slumped slightly. I feel a wave of pain, and sympathy roll over me. I walk to each of the boys and give them all long hugs. I linger in the hug when I reach Cameron.

"I'm sorry." We both whisper to each other at the same time. I continue on to the next person.

For the rest of the day I wait behind the stage.

~*~

The sound of fans has died out and the room is quiet except for the small talk of the boys. Mahogany went back to her hotel, which was a different one than ours. Cam slowly comes around the corner of the stage and I just look at him before standing up and opening my arms. He walks towards me and I do the same. He engulfs me into a warm hug. His strong arms lift me off the ground and I lay my head on his chest.

"Hey," he says.

"Hey," I say back as he sets my feet on the ground. My hands are wrapped around his neck and his are wrapped around my waist. Our faces are only inches apart. Cam starts to lean in and I find myself leaning in too. Our lips crash together and I feel the spark I once felt. I feel him smile against the kiss. Our lips move in sync. We slowly tear apart the kiss and I smile. It's another real smile. He smiles at me and his face doesn't seem so painful and sorrowful to look at. The bags under his bloodshot eyes no longer seem to be as obvious.

"I missed you." He says and plants a kiss on my forehead.

"I missed you too." I say and kiss his cheek.

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A/N: wow

This chapter was interesting I guess

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