Doctor Who: the Continuity of One

Chapter 5

Loxy made herself comfortable on the lounge. More precisely, she made herself comfortable 'posing' on the lounge, as if this were a photo shoot, and she was just having a fun day at the office. This was not a behavior unknown to Jon, as she often was playfully engaging him or the environment in his head to cheer him up, or to help him be more observant. When she was a 'ghost' she could manipulate objects, even bring them to him, but the original object just remained in place. It was in this way Jon realized a thing about reality that most people don't realize: there was the world out there, and there was a world in his head, an exact duplicate, with all the objects placed. Rarely people, unless you got really far out and away from approximation world. Except for cats. Cats seemed to be quite happy in the approximation world. From approximation, one could leap to any other place in the known universe. He only need close his eyes, and Loxy and he were in his own private approximation, minus cats, and any door could take them beyond. In the inner world he could interact with Loxy, touch her. They could hold hands and walk through any doorway and end up in any future or past world, usually only as observers, manipulating the inner world, not interacting with the out worlds or the personalities that dwelt there, as if they were visiting a movie. On very rare occasions, they found themselves in those 'movie' frame, interacting as if they had always been there. Those were the times when Jon and Loxy felt compelled to help someone who was in crisis. Sometimes, they found themselves in Jon's past, helping a younger incarnation of himself. The first time they did this, they realized they had changed his internal timeline, even though the external time line remained the same.

Looking at Loxy now, Jon wanted to engage her. He suspected she knew, because she even gave him the look, raised eyebrows, stuck her tongue out at him, but due to the presence of others, he had restraint. Probably because he others were also seeing what he was seeing. It was a peculiar feeling knowing people were now interacting with the person he had held to himself for so long. It was as if he suddenly had evidence that he wasn't completely crazy, because this was now real. That feeling of relief and elation just revved up his feelings of love, and that always influenced libido. He came back to the present moment when he realized he was being observed. The exchanges he and Loxy had made subtly weren't so subtle, and she was feeling the same tangents as he.

"Is this what you two do all day?" the Doctor asked.

"Probably not a whole lot to do, hanging out in someone's head," Rory said.

"You'd be surprised," Loxy asked.

"I lived over two thousand years, mostly kept to myself, thought a lot about Amy, and I didn't get an Amy tulpa," Rory said.

"Well, you have to follow some protocols," Jon said. "I could teach you."

"No need, He went two thousand years focused on Amy, I assure you, he has a solid Amy Tulpa in his head," Loxy said.

"It wasn't precisely 2,000 years," Amy corrected, having entered the kitchen, but hanging back.

"1,894," Rory said. "I think after waiting for you that long, I am entitled to rounding up."

"How lonely was that?!" Loxy said, sitting up straight. "Jon and I can teach you tulpamancy, so you can have better access to the tulpas in your head."

"Probably not a good idea," Rory said.

"We all have tulpas in our heads," Jon said.

"Everyone we have ever met," Angela said. "Even people we have never met. The human brains is the best personality simulator evolution has ever put together."