Dazzled (Light Series #1)

Chapter 12

Kihyun's POV

"Minah..."

It's already too late when I realized I said her name out loud which is supposed to be just only in my mind.

I want to punch myself.

This is so stupid of me. But d*mn! I can't resist it anymore. This is killing me all over.

I stared at her for infinity, memorizing every details of her face. God knows how much I am dreading to be this close to her. For 4 days, I managed to just stare at her from afar and when she's asleep.

If I wanted to extend my arms, I will be able to cup and hold her face. Every inch of my body wants to grab and pull her towards me and embrace her tightly.

But I can't.

"I'm sorry for leaving you." I whispered.

I didn't leave you if you just know...

She remained silent. Shock all over her face.

I watched her agonizingly as the tears freely falling from her precious eyes.

Sh*t! This hurts so much. Don't cry. Please don't. It is crushing me....

Knowing that it's all my fault. Knowing that it was I who indirectly made her life like this... I just can't forgive myself right now.

She started to move without saying anything. I felt cold. She's not going to say anything?

She kept on walking towards me, I'm afraid she'll bumped into me and I hesitantly moved out of place in front of her and took a step sidewards facing her side.

She stopped.

I can still see the tears flowing on her cheeks. Every drop of it pains me.

Those tears are because of me...

I tried to reach her. But my hand stopped on midair.

My body wants to do a lot of things, talk to her, tease her, hug her tight, caress her hair, touch her face, tap her shoulder and say everything is alright and that I am here.

But I can't.

"Please tell me I am not hallucinating. That I'm not hearing things. That I'm not insane."

A lump stucked in my throat.

I'm real. I'm here. You are not dreaming.

But of course, I'm a coward. I can't say these out loud.

"Yoo Kihyun. If you are him, you already pulled me in your arms. I may sound too confident but I know he misses me too much and he doesn't like the idea of being far away from me for a long time. So, if you are him, you should've hugged me tight already." She said.

Ah... this girl, really.

My heart hurts again.

You really do know me, huh?

But... I'm sorry...

I can't... yet.

"If you are him, you should've had a long apology ready because you know even if I don't look like I get mad easily, I really do in reality."

I am actually saying sorry since the beginning.

"If you are him...."

This is me...

She didn't say anything after that. She's just standing there. Frozen. And still crying silently.

In one swift move she tried to grab something beside her and she did successfully had a hold of my shirt. She's fast. And for the nth time, I thought she's not blind at all.