Journal

Love

Love isnt how it is in the movies or novels.

Love is complicated it's a roller coaster,probably even better or worse then roller coaster.

There is no inbetween you either love it or hate it.

But it's a roller coaster you're afraid to get off of but you're afraid to stay on aswell.

But when the ride finally ends you feel sick.

Not in the stomach but in your chest.

It's not even really sickness you feel it's pain you can feel your heart break.

The day the ride ended for me I felt that pain in my chest i felt my heart breaking.

Was it because of the anxiety that hit me so hard?

Or because i was just depressed that the guy i love no longer loved me?

It was because my heart was broken.

i cried for days while he walked around with a smile on his face.

Was he hurting like i was?

If he was he sure did have a way of hiding his pain away.

Or i guess he was glad we were over