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You didn't really love me did you?

I mean you said you did sometimes showed me you did.

But when we got into fights i saw something different.

Your love turned into hate.

I've heard that you said you fucked up and that you did love me.

I wonder if it was actually true you said that to your friends.

I'm convinced you didn't really love me.

Why? Because when I needed you most you just disappeared.

When I was in the hospital I still found the strength to text you and tell you what was going on.

All I wanted to hear was "I love you" or "I'll be here for you" but I all I got was left on read.

For the whole week I was in the hospital all I could think about was you.

What you were doing? Did you try to call me? Text me?

How were you handling everything?

But once I got out there wasn't a single message from you.

People I didn't even know knew where I was texted me.

But you..It's like you didn't even care.

When I was at my lowest you turned your back on me.

But I still tried to fight for you,for us.

But once I gave up on fighting you let me walk away.

You didn't even flinch at the thought of losing me.

All you said was "okay"