Journal

I had to

I loved him but i had to let him go.

I didn't do it because i fell out of love with him.

Or because my family didn't like him.

I did it because I knew he didn't love me anymore.

I loved this man so much

I loved him with everything I had....With everything I was

I planned on marrying this man.

We would talk about a future together.

We had already named our kids,we even picked out the songs we were gonna dance to at our wedding.

"Angel baby by Rosie & the originals"

"We belong together By Ritchie Valens"

I'm telling you this boy was my dream boy,I wasn't even looking for anyone then he showed up.

He was everything I was looking for.

Then the fight happened...

After that he became everything I was running away from.

I felt like he didn't want to be with me but he just was.

I wanted to put an end to us cause now all he did was play with my mind.

He played with my heart.

Between him and my family I couldn't take it.

So I tried to take my own life but that didn't work out.

So I sat there hurting sad wishing he was the man I fell in love with again.

But he never came back.

So I left because I realized I deserve better then what he was giving me.

Yes it hurt me but I'll survive everyday is a new and better day.

I left because I needed to not because I wanted to but I'm honestly glad I did.