Titanium **ON HOLD**

Story of My Life

Kayla's POV

I finally let it all out, told the boys everything. All except my youtube channel, you didn't really think that I would tell them my entire life, what is life without having something to yourself? I needed one thing to have, another person knowing is okay, like JackJ, but 9 other guys too? I'm sorry but I've got to have something of my own. Besides that, my entire life was released from my mouth, from Cam's fail of a kiss to the bullying right in front of their eyes.

"Kay," Taylor started with tears threatening to run down his face, "Why didn't you tell us. We could've helped."

"I know now, and I'm sorry. I thought I could handle it alone without bringing all of you in it and sacrificing your friendship with Cameron for me. I understand now with a little help," I responded as I scanned the room to see all my friends gathered around me, some with tear stains down their faces' and others with forced smiles. My hand slipped into Aaron's and he gave me a comforting squeeze.

"What is this!?" Nash demanded as he pointed accusingly at our hands. Aaron pulled back quickly and scrunched his eyes shut as if waiting for harsh words or a punch. Nash advanced toward him but I quickly stood up, blocking his path. "Not now Kayla, go sit down while I have a little talk wi-"

"No!" I yelled in his face which was 4in above mine.

"Excuse me?" he asked, clearly frustrated and over protective of me. Even the one time I told him I had a crush on a guy in 6th grade, he flipped out and threatened to beat the guy up if he talked to me ever again. I'm tired of Nash treating me like a little kid.

"You heard me. I'm sick of you treating me like this! I'm old enough to have a crush on someone without you getting into my business and ruining it! Look, I like Aaron, okay? Am I allowed to like someone? Go on a date with someone? Don't you trust me?" I asked him in a shaky voice. His expression softened as he embraced me and I started to cry. "I'm so sorry Nash. I can take so much until I've had enough."

"No, I'm sorry. You're my little sister and your growing up, I trust you but I just want you to be safe from the horrible things of the world. I knew that you we're old enough to do all these things but... I love you too much to see you get hurt, and to find out that you were and didn't tell me, it... well... it really kills me inside" he whispered into my ear. I hugged him tightly,

"I'm always going to need you. Hayes, Skylynn and you are my family. Well, mom and dad too but not like this. We have a different bond that nothing can break," I replied.

"I can't take it anymore," Hayes said with tears streaming down his face, "I need a hug," he demanded as he moved into our hug. We held each other like our lives depended on it.

"As much as I hate to interrupt things," JackG started, "but I'm about to lose it," he told us with a tear finally escaping his right eye.

"GROUP HUG!" Shawn yelled as they all tackled us in the biggest hug I've ever had. There was now 10 people in this hug and it was one of the best feelings I've ever had. To know that I had 20 arms to catch me when I fall, 10 hearts willing to risk anything for me and love that is too big to have a number for.

After a good 5 minutes, we separated and collapsed on the couches. I scurried upstairs and got my song book, realizing what I said earlier would help me with my song! I flipped it open onto the page I was working on. The song is called Human, it's a work in progress. I've been wanting to write a song for my fans, considering that so many people are wanting me to come back after I announced 4 months ago that I was done with this account and never coming back. The fans, omigosh the fans were so nice! They always supported me and begged me to come back, and they have been for all this time when the bully crap started. And now, it's time to give them what they've been asking for.

I took out the song that just needs some more lyrics since I already have the beat to that part of the song on the keyboard. It will probably take me about 1hour to finish because I really don't have much to do besides school work. Oh, and my date with Aaron on Friday. My date with Aaron. It still seems like a dream, that I get to go on my first date with my dream boy! And the fact that Nash is letting me me go is a miracle that I never thought would happen! But I have to focus on my song now instead of his sparkling brown eyes and gorgeous ha- PULL IT TOGETHER KAY! Alright, to the song!

It's a song about a girl who has been through so much and is able to take more pain than a normal person should. But she is only human, she isn't perfect and there is only so much she can take. I started writing it about 3 months, when I was a month into being abused, mentally or physically by Cameron. I knew I had gotten to a place in life no one should ever be in

I suddenly pressed some keys on the keyboard as my hands scattered playing every note like it was there life mission. Every note was pure and whole, carrying out or sprinkling this piece with greatness. My voice flowed in as I sang which was more like a beautiful whisper. It held notes and completed this song with the amazingness I hoped for. I stopped abruptly, aware of people down stairs that could be listening. Scooping up my keyboard and song book, I scurried out of my room and into my studio in the basement. It included headphones, microphones, cameras, stands for my instruments and sound proof walls to keep anyone from listening out. It did whoever have speakers on the other side of a glass wall but it only worked if I pressed a button on the left side of the microphone which I did not press. I turned on the camera, sometimes Nash or Hayes use it for their videos but I put it down so it only sees my lower half of my face. I wanted no one to see my face so they wouldn't judge me by it, but when this song is finished tonight, I will film like I usually do but at the end I will finally show my face. Today is honestly life changing, from a chance of a better life without Cameron and the strength to tell my friends everything and show my face to my millions of fans! I will never forget this day, or friday! Wait, I checked the date on my phone, it's thursday! Tomorrow is friday! Holy Crapamolè! Then I heard the door open, my head snapped to the direction of the door. It was JackG (not Johnson, Gilinsky)

"Hey, I heard you singing and when u weren't in your room Hayes told me that you were down here," he said quickly, obviously nervous for a reason I don't know. "You have a really good voice!"

"No one has heard me sing in person for awhile," I told him, grinning from ear to ear. "Do you really think I'm good?"

"Yes! Your amazing! Your voice reminds me of this girl who sings on YouTube!" he exclaimed, shutting the door behind him.

"Thank you! And who do I remind you of?" I asked blushing.

"Well, no one knows her name, we just know her my her username," he told me with a small smile on his face.

"And what is it?"

"Undercovergurl."

Hey guys!

I know, I know, it's been awhile but I have a life too ya know! Finished school! yayyyy! And I'm a busy gal so I might not be updating as much as I want to but I'm gonna try really hard since I only write in the mornings and nights when I can! Starting a new book in September! I will choose 4 ppl to be in it, don't ask to be in it! I just want to choose myself to see what people really deserve it Stay beautiful❤️ Btw, Only the GRIERS live in North Carolina and all the guys are there to visit for awhile.

~💋KK💋