Titanium **ON HOLD**

Half a Heart

Song of the Chap: Half a Heart by one direction on repeat cause it's a long chap!

Kayla's POV

I woke up with a wet pillow under my head. I wouldn't, no, I couldn't fall asleep until 3am cause I missed Cam so much and I knew I would never see him again. He is gone, and I have to find a way to accept that.

I finally rolled off the bed with a thud. "Ugh," I groaned as I stood up, cracking my back and knees (my knees crack it's weird) and stretching. A note was attached to the window. I grabbed it

Kayla,

You've been the reason I stayed. The reason I've taken the beatings. But I will never forgive myself for what I did to you. Promise me that you will never forget me, at the least. I will never forget you, no matter how hard I try because you will always be the girl who stole my heart without knowing it. I love you so fxcking much it hurts.

"I'm half a heart without you."

Our favorite song, Half a Heart by One Direction. I loved it because it reminded me of you, how when I went home everyday I needed you to make me happy. I will never know what it meant to you but that's what I will wonder about everyday. I will never know if you realized how obvious it was to me that you were undercovergurl. You sang all the time with me and even "tried" teaching me guitar. And I will never know if you truly loved me back but if you happy with Aaron, I'm happy. I left each of the guys a note in their room (don't ask how I got in) so they understand and you can explain to them in more detail. Good luck with Aaron, nobody deserves an amazing girl like you but Aaron will have to make an exception.

❤️Cammy❤️

P.S. I'm half a man at best... with half an arrow in my chest... I will always miss everything we do... I'm half a heart without you. I love you.

I started crying my eyes out and found a sweat shirt hanging on the head board of my bed. another note attacked to it.

Hope you don't mind that I left something to remember me by... or mind that I took one of your shirts. I needed something to keep me going like it always has.

"So your friends been telling me that ur sleeping with my sweater"

I smiled an hugged the sweat shirt.

I walked around my room, hoping to find more things he left for me. A feather was on my night stand with a post-it.

"Go for lunch down by the river..."

the time we spent the day at the lake, you me and Nash, just messing around until we all fell into the water and were chased by swans. I kept this feather.

I put the feather in my hair as I put it in a messing bun. I finally slipped the sweat shirt over my head and snuggled into it.

And then I spotted a picture ripped in half. It was a pic of Cam with someone's arm around his waist and his arm was over someone else's but that part of the picture was gone. On the back it said Best Friends. The other half had me in the picture, from 6months ago.

I collapsed back on my bed and plugged my ear buds in, listening to Half a Heart of course. I curled up into a ball and sobbed. Inhaling the smell of sweatshirt and staring at the picture.

A huge bang and a manly scream echoed through the house.I jumped up as I recognized the sound. Barging into Nash's room and findin him punching his wall. I ran over to him and just hugged him. I felt his anger slip away as his huffs turned to sobs.

"Cams g-gone," he whispered but cleared his throat and straightened his back. "Good! He was so mean to you I don't want to ever see his face again," he said. I backed up a bit and looked into his eyes and they said something completely different.