Chasing That Holy Feeling

Chapter 25: Wrath

"Bro, where should I put these?" asked Neo one day at the office. It's a Saturday morning and we plan to finish everything all at once to make time for an event.

"Just put it here. I'll process all those papers today before lunch so we can go in an hour or two. I'm sick of this job." Sambit ko na ikinangisi niya bago sumalampak sa sofa ng opisina ko.

"Are you tired of your life? E you almost have everything na nga. Your Dad is training you now so you can replace him as the CEO of this company in a few years. He lets you handle big projects, lets you make decisions for the company and he trusts you for almost half of the project the company has. Hindi ba ito naman ang gusto mo? You craved for power since the incident happened." Kibit balikat niyang sagot na madilim kong tinanguan.

"Yeah, I craved for power because this is the only way to redeem myself. They took my dream away and I have to make away to redeem myself. I may not be able to redeem myself back then because I was helpless but I'll make sure to come back in that industry– stronger and more powerful."

"You're still planning to publish that novel?" tanong niya na inilingan ko. Too mainstream.

"I plan to kill them with words but with a different form." I smirked devilishly as I continued what I was doing. "Why are you here anyway? Don't you have work to do at ikaw pa talaga ang nagdala ng mga papel na 'yan? It's not like hindi ko pipirmahan 'yan kung ipinadala mo na lang sa sekretarya mo." Tanong ko habang pumipirma ng maraming papel sa aking mesa.

"You like my secretary?" pang-aasar niya na inilingan ko ng walang gana.

"You wish. Lalaki kaya 'yon gago."

"Kaya nga. Well he's a little sexy compared to–"

"Harvey?" kantyaw ko na nagpaiwas ng tingin niya sa akin. "Stop comparing. The four of us know you fucked him for ages and the devil knows what happened after that fucking session. I can imagine him fucking you too–"

"Leighton, are you even human!?" singhal niya na ikinatawa ko. "Stop those thoughts! Harvey and I are over!"

"Because you suspected him to have an affair with his bodyguard?" nagtaas ako ng kilay sa kanya at umiling siya ng mariin.

"It was not a suspicion. I caught him flirting with his bodyguard while he's damn drunk!" paliwanag niya na ikinibit balikat ko. I guess gay relationships works the same way?

"Uh... because he's calling you and you cannot come over? Tapos noong nagbago ang isip mo naisip mo siyang sunduin and you saw him with his bodyguard?" sarkastiko kong sagot at binato niya na ako ng papel na kanina niya pa kinukuyumos. "Obviously, his bodyguard will definitely be there kasi trabaho niya yon."

"But that's not what I saw!"

"A drank person can be so impulsive, you know. Malay mo naman he saw that man as you. I don't know. Malay ko ba sa gay relationships?"

"Well you might want to try dicks so you can relate?"

"Might as well eat some pussies so you can forget about his huge member."

"Ew?"

"Wow Neo! Ew na nayon? Samantalang noong college kung makapaglandi ka ng mga babae sa batch natin. Lahat ata naikama mo."

"That's because I was confused. Kulang na nga lang mag mumog ako ng holy water every time I convince myself that I'm straight and not a gay man. You know... paminta stories." Umirap siya sa akin na ikinatawa ko.

"At least ngayon out and proud ka na. You found your identity." Sagot ko at isinara na ang papel na hawak ko para pumunta na sa susunod na pipirmahan ko. "Can I ask you something?"