Greatest Desire

Chapter 15 -Why me?

5 months have gone by and I've been enjoying this pregnancy. Chad had been such a help. He cooks and cleans for me and he loves loves loves when I tell him I'm craving for things in the middle of the night he runs out to get it without a problem. The only problem is we are still looking for a new doctor since his pshyco doctor ex girlfriend wants to proclaim her love to him now that he has moved on to bigger and better things. Tyson hasn't been around but Chad has said he going to set up cameras' around the house so if he does come he will beat his ass outside. The way Chad is protective reminded me of all those movies about a man living a girl so much he protects her and i know he wouldn't let anything happen to me at all. Ahhh Ahhh " ameliah what's wrong?". Ahhh Ahhh something is wrong we need to go to the hospital. Chad grabbed me, his wallet and his keys and jumped in the car and speed all the way to the midtown general Hospital.  We checked in fast due to the pain I was in. I was hooked up to IVs and they ran test and was given some pain relief it helped but I could still feel some pressure. My obgyn came and so did Chad exs gf who was on call last night. Everything suddenly went silent. The room began to spin and everyone was out of site. It's like the light in my body when out. " CLEAR *beep beep beep beep* . Welcome back ameliah thought we lost you there. "How long have I been out?" 5 minutes. But figured out the problem your pregnancy is very at risk and your hormone levels have dropped which isn't good. That usually means the chance of miscarriage is back on the table . Hearing that news crushed me like 1000 knives entering my body all at once. As we were leaving the hospital the doctor told me just try and take it easy and no stress as it can cause a lot more complications. With that I decided to take a early leave from work until after my maternity leave was up. Chad was the best person to be around going through all of this he spent time with me and read to the baby and myself and we connected on another level other than having sex. We learned we love playing scrabble, we both want to learn tennis and we want to teach our child another language. Couple weeks went by and I've wanted to just have some sex with Chad but he was rejecting me until the doctor said it was OK to engage in physical activity. " Ameliah, remember the midwife is coming tomorrow to check you out to see if things are going ok". He kissed me on my forehead as he went through the door to fly out of town for a business trip for the next 3 days. He tried to reschedule but I know he had to go to be a provider for us. The next morning the doctor came she checked on things and sadly she said my hormone level had dropped more and that I can have a miscarriage at any time. I tried calling Chad but his phone was probably dead or he was still flying. I didn't know what to do. I called cherry but no answer and I called Julie but she been busy with her new job. I was alone and scared. The best thing to do was eat and shower and wait until it happened. I ate a nice bowl of pasta and drank some water than watched a few shows before showering. I felt so relaxed but at the same time I felt heart broken. Why did this have to happen to me and Chad everything was going great and now it's like everything is falling apart. "ahhh ahhhhhhhhhhh". This is it its happening I can't move and no one is here. " AHHH AHHHH". I started to cry and hold my stomach. " I'll always love you my precious baby". As I closed my eyes and felt the wetness of blood flow between my legs I opened my eyes to Tyson at the window he didn't even bother to throw rocks he just opened the window and came in and called 911 and stayed with me until they came. He came beside me and just hugged me as I cried . One thing I will appreciate about Tyson was he never wanted to see me in pain or cry. The ambulance came and took me to the hospital. As I was being rushed to a room I gave tyson my phone and told him to keep calling Chad and tell him what is happening. I hope Chad doesn't get upset with tyson for telling him the news. I'll have to explain things properly once I get the chance. I came out the emergency room and in recovery Tyson was in the room on the phone and I heard him say " she's out now I'll give her the phone so you guys can talk. As I took the phone I said baby I'm sorry I tried calling you to tell you but we lost our baby. He just told me how strong I was and how much he loved me and will be back tomorrow morning and we can spend the week together.  He even mentioned he was happy that Tyson was there for me even though we aren't friends or anything at all anymore. "Give Tyson the phone I'd like to talk to him". " I love you ameliah and good night" . " I love you too Chad ".I gave Tyson the phone and they had a short discussion and Tyson said I can do that for you no problem and hung up the phone. I fell asleep instantly and I just had dreams after dreams of a baby going away. It was like it was really happening. And right before I woke up the baby eventually came to me and said mommy i love you and I said I love you too my son.  And jumped up to seeing Chad. He just looked at me holding my hand. And I started crying and he leaned in to hug me and console me. Tyson then left without a word just a glance. This was suppose to be a happy time but all I went through was heart ache like none ever before.