Greatest Desire

Chapter 19 Taking A Break

Driving in the late night hour helped me to calm down a bit but every time I started to rethink leaving I get angry again and start to speed. How could Chad not tell me about Shella. As hard as it was to tell him about Tyson I did. I wonder what else he could be hiding. Maybe they had a small reunion while I was going through my emotions who can really know. "RING RING". Hearing the phone ring breaks the thoughts going on in my head. I picked up the phone and looked at the screen. "Chad ❤️". I threw the phone back in the passenger seat and continue to the hotel downtown. I refuse to talk to him at the point in time because he had plenty of time to talk. I finally pulled up to the Golden Grace hotel and parked. Although I never thought I'd ever go to a hotel alone without Chad I knew this was the only way to have space. "Hi do you have any rooms available"? I asked the front desk "yes ma'am and how long will your stay be ?" A week I responded and I can pay for it in full right now. I have a bit of money saved up for in case of an emergency and this definitely was one. "Here you go ma'am this is your room key to suit number 316, also you will received room service free of charge and complimentary wake up calls if needed". As I took the key and walked to the elevator I could only imagine how insane Chad is going and I really don't care. Once I got to the room and just sat on the bed and cried. I was hurt and I was so angry and I just couldn't compose myself. I cried all night until I fell asleep. Waking up the next morning I have 12 missed calls along with voice messages 8 from Chad 2 from Julie 2 from Cherry. He can call the FBI for all I care but I refuse to talk to anybody right now especially him.

Three days have gone by and I'm dreading going to work I really don't want to see Chad and I know he will go in the hopes of seeing me. So I called my boss and asked if I could work from home and if she could email me the work that needs to be done. Thankfully she agreed and I was able to work and keep myself busy for couple of hours. I watched a couple TV shows and took a nap before completing the work for today. It was now 6 pm so I called room service for some food not only was I hungry but I was also bored. After an hour I received and ate my food then hopped in the shower. I'm going out tonight to a club all by myself. I needed to have fun and laugh again and be happy. So I quickly got dressed to go to this urban clothing store beside the hotel. Since I didn't pack clothes I needed things to wear, so I bought a couple pants ,shirts, skirts, sweaters, heels and regular shoes and 4 dresses which I plan on wearing one tonight. I ran back upstairs put my hair up and put on this nice silk red tight dress that really showed off my figure along with my black stilettos. I called a taxi to pick me up and off the barcode night club I went. It's jammed pack for the middle of the week but it's even better for me I can have fun. I had a couple drinks and danced alone to every song, I was free and I was happy. Suddenly I got a text from Chad "Where are you and when are you coming home" IGNORE! I wanted to just have fun tonight dance and drink . It was ladies night at the club so everything was free. Couple hours went by and I decided to text Chad back "Why does it matter, you lie and hide things from me". "Baby just tell me where you are so we can talk". Chad wants me back that I do know but right now it's all about me and what I want and what I want is to dance. Now it was 4am which means time to go back to the hotel and sleep. The taxi came pretty fast and in no time I found myself in the room and fell asleep.

The next morning I woke up with a ugly hangover. I really over did it. And I started to think I can't avoid Chad forever but I don't want to see him but I do need to figure out if there's more to the story. " Chad come to the Golden Grace Hotel Suit 316". I went to the washroom to shower to freshen up and then I heard a door knock "baby it's me". I opened the door and Chad didn't wait until I said come in. He walked around inspecting the room as if there should be someone else here. He then turns to look at me and I see in his eyes it's passion regret love and sorrow all at once. "Let's talk" I said as I gestured for us to sit on the couch. "I need to know everything or I walk" Chad then continues to explain that after our miscarriage he was worried about me and he reached out to her since she was the doctor on call and was there for the early stages of my pregnancy. He thought that he did something wrong and wanted to help himself and me to heal the best way possibles. So they met up for lunch to talk about it and then she started to take things personal and back to the past between them and started texting him often about how she missed him and wanted him back. I became furious all over again that I just wanted to hit him for not telling me and to hit her for trespassing. "Ameliah I'm sorry I know I should have told you but I thought I could handle everything and I thought I was helping us. He said as he grips my leg. Feeling his touch sent shivers down my spine. I missed his touch but I still need a break. "Thanks for telling me, you should have told me earlier when it first happened but it's done with now".

"Ameliah, come home now please I miss you there". Although he came clean and missed me I wasn't ready to leave I still have 3 more days. "I'm not going  anywhere I'm staying until my says here are up". He looked at me crushed but I didn't fall for it or accept it. He stands up in silence "baby please" I stand up to his level and said "I'm not leaving yet" he then grabs me n pushes me against the wall. I knew he wanted me to give in and he thought giving me all of him right now would work but I pushed him off and said "I'll be home in 3 days" I still need a break. I open the door for him to walk out and leave and as he did so he kissed my cheeks. "See you at home Ameliah". As I was ready to closed the door he looked back and saw my red dress from last night and my black stilettos on the floor. "Where did you go?" I laughed and said "I went out last night". "Who did you go with" he asked and as I was closing the door shut I said "wouldn't you like to know" I needed to scare him a bit in thinking that I went out with another guy and that I could hide things as well.