DEDICATION | Book Two

C H A P T E R 22

Shaun & his parents in MM
(You guys finally get to see who I chose as a face claim for his daddy)

C H A P T E R
T W E N T Y - T W O

Walking into the living room where Alisha was laid out on the couch on her back watching Sesame Street. Shaun laid right on top of her to lay on her stomach then let out a sigh letting her know something was bothering him.

"You want to talk bout it?" She questioned pausing what she was watching.

Getting comfortable against her and wrapping his arms more around her he sighed. "My mama and I have been talking for the past few months and she still can't build the strength and courage to face me. When she sees me, she sees him and I honestly don't know when she'll ever be ready. She's already missed so much of my life, and for years I have craved for that motherly love, I've always wanted to be able to call her up and vent about my problems, to just hug her when I'm sad and I can't. Here she is right in my life and the many things I've been wanting to do can't be done."

Rubbing his back, Alisha leaned forward kissing his forehead letting him vent. "It's just so much going on, my dad is getting no better so I'm dealing with that and trying my best to remain strong for him but seeing him in pain is taking a toll on me." He sniffled. "He fell down yesterday and the first person he called was me, and I asked him how come he didn't call the paramedics first and he told me he felt like today was his last day of life. When he fell he felt so weak and fragile and he wanted to at least tell me he loved me before he went. But luckily he was fine, it was just the Lupus causing aches in his joints. But then his kidney's are also failing on him so they're thinking about putting him on Dialysis if he doesn't get better."

"Alisha, I know I joke ninety-percent of the time about everything but this shit here I can't even try to smile about. I'm about to lose my pops and the thought of it all kills me already."

Making him sit up, she hugged him tightly. "Death is something we can't beat or outrun and when its someones time to go we just have to accept it. But you gotta at least have some type of faith that your dad will be okay, sometimes the rain and thunder that life brings is a way to clean the world for better days to come and I believe this is just a storm we're going through and soon it will all get better."

Pulling away from the hug, he kissed her then excused himself walking back to their room. Alisha knew things for his dad weren't looking the best but she also knew she had to remain positive for the sake of him.

All Shaun had most of his life was his father, and Alisha hoped that if Shaun did lose his dad that his mom would push that fear of facing him and be there for him for once in his life.

Alisha understood his mother's struggle but she honestly felt as a mother as time passed that feeling would have faded by now. Alisha knew what it felt like to be raped and yeah she never wanted to face her rapist but she felt once she agreed to keep Shaun as a mother she could have at least stayed in contact but she just left him and his dad.

And now that she was back, Alisha noticed how happy he was but she knew he would be happier the most they could actually sit and talk face to face and she prayed that day would come soon.

Alisha knew she could only do so much far as his woman but she knew a man needed his mothers love too to keep him afloat and level headed.

          When we by Tank played from his tv while the two engaged into a deep kiss on his couch. His hands traveled all around her body warming each spot with his touch.