DEDICATION | Book Two

C H A P T E R 40

C H A P T E R
F O R T Y

Four months passed by rather quickly and life for Ahmad and those around him continued to change some for the better and some for the worst. But far as Ahmad things where actually going okay, Cali and him were officially legally separated and co-parented with the kids.

He was attending sessions with Derek to get himself together and focused on what mattered the most which was his kids and himself. At this point in his life he was doing everything for them, he was mentally getting himself together so he could be the best parent and example of what a man is suppose to look and act like for them and them only.

As the days passed he could kinda see himself not working things out with Cali and being content with the way things where going now. Being a father to Marquette, Armoni, Adrian and Mariah was the greatest blessing he got from Cali and he was content with only having them in his life.

He loved Cali no doubt, but as he went to sessions and talked out his emotions with Derek he couldn't see himself ever trusting her and loving her the way he did before. He forgave her but he knew he would never forget it and it would always have him kind of paranoid to put all his trust in her again.

But although life for Ahmad was booming things for Cali weren't, she was miserable without Ahmad in her life the way she wanted him. They hadn't had sex, or even touched each other in that way within' the four months and she understood and respected him not wanting to but she missed him.

She missed him holding her, catering to her and just being the perfect man and father to her and she knew that it was all gone all behind her and although she wanted to change his mind, she knew she couldn't.

Everyday she had to watch him grow and become this happier person and she loved seeing him like that but she hated that it was without her.

Ahmad was taking trips with his boys, the kids and even a few trips with Shanice and Cali just had to watch from the sideline and hate outside of the club.

She knew the longer they stayed apart the more she was losing him and she was willing to do whatever to fix it, but apart of her felt he would be better off without her in his life. He seemed so happy now and she felt she would only bring him more pain.

Getting up from her bed she walked over to her dresser and grabbed her phone to check his snap since that was how she kept tabs on what he was doing since Ahmad usually posted damn near everyday.

Going straight to his name she clicked through his snaps watching some of his work out videos, his motivational messages he liked to do and a few of his everyday selfies he took. She then came across a cute post he made about their kids and how he expressed his love for them but when he got to the last snap and saw he was out to eat with Shanice and the kids she got pissed.

She knew Shanice was around the kids since her and Ahmad where friends but she didn't know they where doing like family outtings and shit together. As she watched the snaps she didn't like how they looked like such a happy little family together. She agreed to allow Shanice around the kids but she was starting to regret that decision now.

Cali wanted to like Shanice so bad but she couldn't help but resent her since she felt in a way she was taking her spot as the woman in Ahmad's life.

They spent so much time together and although it was clear that their friendship was platonic Cali couldn't help but feel that it would soon turn into more.