undeniable | tom holland

author's note | please read

hi guys

this is a response to every single "please update" comment i've had in the last two years

i know i fucked up

i am so sorry

so please read this apology note

i am going to be completely hones

i've been dealing with so much

high school really fucked me up but i know that's not an excuse

i've lost inspiration and hope in every single thing i used to like in these last two years

i love this story so much and sometimes i just open wattpad and stare at the blank white screen in front of me that says chapter twenty two but my hands don't move, and my mind doesn't think

i can't bring myself to write when i can't even bring myself to read because i'm so exhausted from nightmares and insomnia and anxiety and exams and school

i've completely lost control of everything

but that doesn't excuse anything

i just thought that i should imform you guys because i've completely ignored all of you the second i started struggling with thing i had never struggled before and i am so so so so sorry for that

i know this makes me a horrible person but i have so many new ideas for a new tom fic so maybe you guys will be willing to read that because i'm not sure i will be able to continue with undeniable after such a long time but that makes me so sad because when i first started i poured my heart and life into this book and i love it so much but i lost it, i can't reach inside myself to ertie about dany blake anymore which is terrible because she is the favorite charecter that i've ever created but i will try to give her at least a proper ending

i want to let you know that i will try to do everything to bring myself to write because my heart aches every single time i thinkof this tpry and how i didn't write a single word in two years

i've found that forcing yourself to do things that you used to like relaxes you and actually helps so i guess that's what i'll try to do

i love you guys so much and thank you so much for sstill reading this story even though i've bern a complete ass

once again i am so so so so sorry

love ya. xx

-ilayda