Romira

Chapter - 29

You consume my heart and my every thought, but yet, I want to be more consumed by you. The dreams we have will keep us warm. But the first kiss is when life begin.
~Unknown.
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Akira

I keep staring in his half open grey eyes when they suddenly widen in disbelief, amazement and unsureness but the next thing I know I'm being scooped of my current position and tightly wrapped in a pair of strong arms. Dumbfounded, I forget breathing and stay still as feel his harsh breath on the side of neck as where he has buried his face.

I am too stunned to response. I am feeling too much at once, so many emotions at the same time. The way his arms feel around me is indescribable, the way his breath giving me shivers is ethereal, the way we fit together is incredible.

Oh my.

Surrounded by his arm is like being hyperactive and soothed. How can he make me nervous and serene at the same time?

I have never felt this way before. The way I'm feeling is beyond words. For the first time in long time I'm feeling like I'm home, it's so surreal. Several unknown sensation are erupting from deep inside me. I can't place all of them but I can fully distinguish one of them. The one that is imperious above others. The one that has me terrified of. The one I don't want to acknowledge but I need to.

There are two things in our life that are unpredictable. First one is accidents, when it happens it'll either bang up with us or bang us up for good. Second one is Love, when it happens, there no choice at all. Like a storm it'll come and tear us apart, it will shatter us beyond repair. Like a one strong wind it just blows us away, no question asked. It sucks our entire being and leave us dry as nuts. The funny thing is we are left begging for more. Doesn't matter how much it hurts.

I know it because this is exactly how I'm feeling at the instant. This is what happening to me and I can't deny that I'm falling. I'm falling in love with Romero King and I'm scared. So scared of it.

You made your bed now lie on it.

My terrifying intuitions breaks free when I hear him murmur in between my neck, "I'm sorry Ray. I'm so fucking sorry for everything. I'm sorry for every wrong word I used toward you. I'm sorry for every shit I did to you. Believe me, my intention were never to hurt you, far from it. I just wanted to push you away, but how could it happen when I couldn't even stay from you? Everything was my fault not your, never your. Please forgive me Ray." He is rambling, drunk ramble, but with each word he keep tightening his arms as if I'd flow away if he loosen it.

I certainly like drunk King better.

I sigh in content as I inhale his scent but my mind is running to keep with my emotions, its hard to when his every develops some more, "I'm sorry too for saying those horrible things to you. You are not monster or heartless, not even close. Yes you are a bit rough but not evil."

And I'm falling for you.

How would he react to this? Does he feel same for me or better yet does he feel anything for me? Most of the meaningful thing I've heard from him are in his drunken state. When he is sober its hard to reach him, he becomes untouchable. I do really hope that one day, I could touch him from inside out.

I guess I just have to wait and watch what future holds for us. But for now I want revel myself in the emotions I've for him so I'm going to indulge my heart to celebrate itself.

And celebrate it does.

He slowly pulls away, still keeping his arm on my waist, loosening them slightly as he stare in my eyes with such intently that I almost want to close my own, "No don't. You shouldn't apologize to me, not for anything. Whatever you said was true, I'm such a worthless piece of shit. I wish I was not so fucked up-"