Romira

Chapter - 45

Before you, Bella, my life was a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars, point of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason, for anything.
~Stephanie Meyer, Twilight.

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Akira

Have you ever felt the fear of unknown? Like when everything is going good and you're finally happy, a nagging feeling occurs. Involuntarily we start questioning if our reality is a dream and then a sudden fear of being taken away from all your happiness strikes us painfully. We panic and try to absorb as much as possible and that eventually leads to the end of our happiness.

This is exactly what happening to me right now. I'm trying to not panic but it's hard to feel comfortable around these felicity when all my life I have experienced very little happiness. Since I was little girl I had learnt that happiness comes to those who work hard for it but these past few day I'm filled with the joy.

And love.

A luxury that I don't think I deserve. I don't know how to manage myself in it, its scary place. I don't even want to blink for the I fear if I do everything going to be snatched away from me and I'll be left with nothing.

Nothing at all.

I sigh in frustration, there, I go again, thinking about things I shouldn't. I shouldn't worry about future and past every damn time, I should just concentrate on present and enjoy it. Why can't I just do that?

If you could then it wouldn't be you.

Instead of completing my assignment, the reason I am here in Romero's room, I start thinking about absurd things, causing a terrible headache. Picking up my phone I read time to find its almost seven pm.

It has been over an hour since we arrived his condo but he got an urgent call he needed to attend so he went in his office to deal with that. He was little reluctant to leave me alone by myself but after I told him that I had to do my assignment, he agree. I was ready to work down hall but he insisted that use his room and that he would find me after he's done.

But he still haven't come here, means he is not done with his work. And what's he doing anyway? I know he is owner of his company and has to do lots of work. How does he manage to oversee everything from here? Is he doing some sort of video conference or something?

My phone rings halting my brain to stop. Looking over I find it from Logan, I let it for voice mail and start collecting my books but my mind keeps drifting back to that mail. I wonder what did he want to say?

Giving in I decide to listen whatever he has to say. I bring my phone to me and press the button, "Ira, I know you are upset with me and I admit I was wrong. I didn't even realize what was coming from my trap. I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry babe. I shouldn't have reacted like that.

"Fuck it! What was I supposed to say when I found that you got yourself a boyfriend? I was shocked and angry, I don't want you to do something, you might regret on later. I realise that my approach was wrong, it's your life and you are far more mature than any of us. I should have known that you'd never make any decision so hastily. If you say that you love that bastard, I trust your decision.