Never Let Go ~ Joshifer

Chapter 7 ~ Starting Over

CHAPTER 7
Jen's P.O.V.

I wake up only to find an empty sensation stirring inside of me.

I have no need to get up. No motivation what-so-ever, so what is the point?

Josh. Josh is my reason.

His voice rings in my head,
"Fine, but that Jen was cool... this Jen isn't the one I gave my phone number to..."

Damn it Josh. Your too... too, right.

I need to straighten things out, with no make up and no fake personality. I am beginning to doubt that he will even forgive me let alone listen to me, but I guess it's worth a shot.
He's worth it.

I hear a hand twist my door handle open and turn on my light. An excited voice bounces off my walls, it says "I hope you are excited for your audition today Miss Jennifer Lawrence!"

"I know that you are more nervous than I am Mum!" I reply with a laugh, she always knows just how to make me smile.

"Just doing my job Sweetie, so hurry up and get out of bed!" She says raising her eyebrow with a wink before shutting the door behind her.

Urghhh, I forgot about that! Halfway through the day I have to leave early to go to a audition for Romeo and Juliet. It was originally my idea but I soon backed out, but it seems like mum never got that memo.

I finish getting ready and quickly put my hair into a ponytail, nothing special. Just me. I just hope it's good enough.

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Josh spots me first.

We both walk together to classrooms D3 & D4. Film and Photography, I have Mr Gary Ross and Josh has Mr Francis Lawrence.

"Hey!" he says with a smile while scratching the back of his head. I can sense they awkwardness we share.

"I'm sorry." Our voices sink into each others, for a fraction of time everything feels right, magical.

"Jinks!" I shout completely crushing the moment.

"I thought we were getting to old for childish games." He throws back laughing.

"Fine," I poke out my tongue, "But I truly am sorry for being so dumb yesterday. I just had to open my eyes." I expect the words to come out mumbled and mixed up but instead they turn out clear.

To my surprise he nods. I give him a gentle punch and he shows a playful pout.

"The bell's about to go, I see you around, okay." He says slightly unsure.

"Yeah," I call back walking into D4.

Even though Film and Photography is one of my favourite subjects that doesn't stop me falling into a captivating daydream which grow deeper until Mr. Ross cuts though my sereneness. I never liked Mr. Ross a great deal, I mean, he is a great teacher and all but I don't find myself connecting.

He calls out to me, "Look class, I wonder who little Jennifer is daydreaming about..." He smirks as someone from the back of the class shouts, "I bet it's Alan Richson!"

For starters who even is this Alan guy and geez Mr. Ross can be so cruel sometimes.

Next all I hear is the class burst into fits of laughter and gossip. I do what I'm best at, shutting them out. Although this helps the pain now it will leave me feeling more broken later.

I ignore everything and everyone until I hear the sweet yet deafening sound of the bell letting me know it's recess.

I hear someone whisper to me gently, the voice says, "It's not even worth getting upset over, trust me."

Oh Jena, II'm so grateful. She is the one person that alway seems to be there in my times of need, she is so great. I sigh gently.

I start to make my way to the lockers when someone taps my shoulder. I spin around expecting it to be Josh, but in fact it is a complete stranger, well at least I think it is. He is tall and blond, his soft smile melts me away.

His voice is as calm as the ocean on a perfect Summers day. Taking my hand he speaks into my ear, "I wonder Miss Jennifer, is that true?"

Someone walking by whistles loudly making heads turn from all down the hall. Winking at me he let's our hands fall and he walks away leaving me with a swirl of wind sending butterflies fluttering around my insides.

My madly racing thoughts are finally calmed after a long time staring into space.

I can't worry about this mysterious 'Knight in Shining Armour' right now.

The good news is, I only have to slog through another hour or so till I leave.

I didn't get to catch up and chat to Josh but we are in the same class next so it won't be too bad. Music, with Mr. Lenny Kravitz .

By the time the bell goes I am already at the classroom. Josh sits behind me in this class, I start to see him walk towards me smiling slightly awkwardly. I pretend I don't see the rigidness in his stance.

I just want things to be normal, like they were till I stuffed everything up.

Not saying a word he sits down in his sit. Pulling out a piece of paper and pen he starts scribbling away.

Folding the paper to a small size he slips it to me. Carefully unfolding it under my desk I read it...
Can we just start over?

Smiling I write back,
Thank you :)

It's harder for me to pass the notes backwards so Josh helps out by 'accidentally' dropping his pen and we both dive under our desks.

I nod to him and he whispers to me, "Hello, my name is Josh. What's yours?"

I let out a small laugh and reply, "Jen, it's lovely to meet you Josh."

Grinning ear-to-ear he takes his pen and sits back in his seat.

Mr. K is too cool to ever get angry but he doesn't seem to notice anyway. His phone begins to ring, answering it he ushers us all to be quiet.

After a series of nodding and tapping his foot Mr. K says,
"Jen, you are needed at Secondary Reception now, oh and bring your bag."

Suddenly nerves and worrying thoughts lap over me like heavy waves. I speak softly,
"Yes Mr. K."

Gathering my stuff I head to the lockers to collect my school bag. I wish I didn't have such a worst-case-scenario type brain. I can feel my heart beat grow faster with every step.

As I walk though the glass doors I see my mother standing with her back towards me.

This can't be good, mum never misses work, I think trying to swallow my nerves.

She spins around to see me standing and staring at her.

"Quick," she says in a huff, "There's no time to lose, sign out Jen."

Work is one of the most important things in mums life, she would not miss it for something small.

What have I done?

I guess that will be answered soon enough.

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I'd be expecting some more cliffhangers if I were you...
(So this is what it's like to be evil.)

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