Masking Emotions May 7, 2018 #72
It doesn't feel right showing emotions.
Not when being in public.
People will question why I'm laughing,
Why I'm sad,
Why I'm angry,
Why I'm happy.
I don't need that.
I can't show negative emotion most of all.
Not in public and not at home.
At home, I can't show sadness.
At home, I can't show anger.
At home, I can't show annoyance.
I can't express and let out those negative emotions anywhere.
Not how I want.
They would think I lost it,
And make me take those so called magical pills.
They say it will help.
They say it will make you feel better.
They say it will make my emotions balance out.
But I don't need them.
That is not how I want to get better.
I want to let it out.
If I want to scream, I should.
If I want to vent in frustration, I should.
If I want to throw or hit something, I should.
If I want to cry, reason or not, I should.
I have the right to express it if I want,
And without being pushed to take pills.
But I can't.
No matter how much I want, too.
They'll think I've snapped.
They'll be worried and scared.
Those negative emotions can't be shown.
They must be hidden.
I got to have a poker face.
It's a good thing I'm getting good at it.
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