Stronger Feelings

Chapter 4

I wouldn't be surprised if you're thinking, "What happened to her feelings she just had?" The more I'm with him, I feel like we should be acting like friends, like we used to. I didn't see this coming. I think the reason for this is because I don't want our friendship to fade. I just know that I'm really confused right now. I don't even know what I want to say to Louis right now.

After giving a moment of thought, I say to Louis, "I really like you too, Lou."

"Really?" He asked. He almost sounded as if he was relieved.

"Yeah, I do." As he continues to drive, he grabs my hand. I can hear the beat of my heart as my face blushes and he says, "Well then, I guess we're official."

I'm not exactly sure if this is what I thought this was going to feel. He's like my brother. But I hide my feelings with a smile.

We finally arrive at the bowling alley. As I get out of the car, I can only hope that this won't go awkward. I'm just afraid that what I'm feeling on the inside will show through. But all I can do is ignore it and have a good time with my best friend. Well, I guess my boyfriend now.

Wait... Boyfriend? Louis Tomlinson is my boyfriend? That doesn't sound right. Okay, this is not what I want. I wish I could rewind time and say something other than what I had said.

Louis grabs my hand just before we walk in the doors. This doesn't feel right. He holds the door open for me and I walk in, hoping this doesn't go bad. After we order our shoes and find a spot to bowl, I go to the bathroom to take a break from this whole reality thing. I'm a very emotional person, so while I was in the restroom standing in front of the mirror, I began to cry a few tears. I didn't want Louis to begin to worry, so I quickly wipe the tears and head back out. Louis was up first, so I sat in the chair and waited for my turn to come up.

I sat there, not even paying attention to Louis. I didn't even smile. When his turn was over, he walked over to me and sat next to me. "What's wrong, babe?" With the tone of his voice, I can tell he knows that something's not right with me right now.