Reasons I Try

Lies

Dear You, 
It's pretty self-explanatory. If you said you wanted to live you'd be lying. You'd be lying about wanting to die as well. What you really want is to get through another day and eventually be able to get through the day where you live as who you really are. You don't want to live to know what life feels like. You also don't want to die because that's it. There's nothing after that. 
The promises people will make are lies. Don't hold someone up to a promise they make. Hold them up to what they say and do now. Anyone can say anything and people wouldn't be able to prove otherwise. Actions speak louder than words. 
Your actions don't define you. That's the only truth in this world that you really believe. 
When someone says they won't hurt you. Don't believe them unless they prove otherwise. 
When someone says they won't do it again. Don't believe them unless they prove otherwise. 
The worst part is that you lie to yourself more than you lie or anyone else lies. You've lied to yourself so much that you don't even know what to think. 
Life is a lie but you decide how to take that lie. Life can be a beautiful lie or an ugly one. It's how you interpret it. 
Don't leave this lie.