You do it everyday don't you?
Yeah I do and I hate what I do. It's like every time something nice or good actually happens I just... mess it up.
I had something and I messed it up badly and I don't know if I can fix it.
You don't know if they read this or not.
Sorry isn't e-fucking-nough for you. It never will be. It's all I can do right now. I can't take back what I said I'd do but I won't do it please believe me. I love you a lot, you mean so much to me. I didn't know what I needed to do or say but my reaction and actions were the wrong ones. You've helped me through everything I was going through so please I'm begging you. Don't leave me. I love you okay?
