My Heart Unraveled

Sunshine and Pain

You held my hand, 

You helped me through it all. 

So would you please tell me why?

Why would a man like you make me fall? 

Your touch was healing to my pain 

Now with rumors I’ve heard and things I saw,

I wondered if it was all for a game. 

I believed I had found your flaw. 

I cant believe it to be true,

I refuse to accept it until you explain

You seemed heaven sent, 

Now I feel so much pain.

You said there was one before,

Do I trust a man?

She says their was more,

Do I trust her? 

I want to believe that you are pure. 

I want to believe I mean something to you.

I don’t want to be your toy, 

I don’t want the rumors to be true. 

You are so gentle and kind.

How is it possible for you to be a player?

Am I blinded by your lies?

I used to think you were the greatest find. 

Would you ever hurt me?

No I think not. 

Will you ever let me be? 

Never will you leave me or so I thought.

I ask you how could you play my emotions,

As if they were a model airplane toy.

You say you never would dream of putting me in pain.

I thank God for you my dearest boy. 

How could I have doubted your kindness,

When you have stood near  me through it all?

All I needed was you too confess

For the sake of my pain and loneliness.

I must now apologize 

For seeing you with juvenile eyes. 

I know now our friendship will be everlasting, 

No matter where it be that you are departing. 

My love for you my dearest friend,

 is that of which will have no end.

You stood by me when I fell.

You carried me through my living hell.

Why would I doubt the sun that does shine

 With rays of light that is all mine.