Just a place to be

Life sucks get over it

It's not like anyone ever really reads this but it always makes me feel better when I talk about things on here. So I mean other than the fact that today is the anniversary of the time I tried killing my self. There's also this asshole at school who keeps harassing me and trapping me in corners and he keeps trying to touch me and get near me. I've told teachers and hes been suspended but he came back this week and I've had to take a higher dose of my antidepressants because my body is swarming with depression and anxiety right now. Speaking of depression and what happened, I've started getting flashbacks and nightmares about what happened and I have to take sleeping pills in order to sleep each night. These nightmares give me migraines in the morning so I have to take medicine for that. I have to take a lot of medicine since my mental and physical health are declining. I have to take meds for my migraines, my allergies, my major depression, my panic attacks and bursts of anxiety, me feeling sick and not being hungry all the time, I have to talk to a doctor and get tested because I might have ptsd, psoriasis, rosacea, hypoglycemia, anemia, and something involving my intestines. My parents got divorced so that's the only good news I have. My mom has a boyfriend now. He's nice I guess. I had to move because my father would've killed me. I think about harming myself even though I've been clean for a year today. There aren't any sharp objects here so the best I can do is have a panic attack and cry myself to sleep. Also my fainting spells have gotten worse and I'm pretty sure as far as friends go I just exist to most of them and I'm the 1000th option apparently. On those rare occasions when I'm not having nightmares, I'll have dreams of me killing my self and no one noticing until years later. I haven't had good sleep or a good mental state in a long time. This will be the very few of times anyone on here will hear of me cause I can't do it and I need a mental vacation from this toxic earth filled with snakes disguised as people