Simply Invisible

Chapter 6

Me and Leon were at my house, working on our physics project when he suddenly said

"Why do you always look so uncomfortable, I have realised, is it because of your whole illness?"

Um, I didn't really know what to say, I wish he would just get on with the project.

"Um, I guess, but can we just get on with the project, I just really don't feel like talking about this now?" I quickly replied.

He just laughed and said okay. He stared at me for a LONG, uncomfortable moment and then started going on again and  asked me something I had been dreading since the first time we met.

" Do you want to, you know.. " he scratched the back of his head lazily "grab a coffee some time?"

I face palmed my self. Should I take the risk, or loose the chance? I closed the text book and panicked when he starting edging closer to me. I jumped so far back I almost fell of the bed. Luckily, he catched me just in time and pulled me back up.

" Um, no thank you". He looked puzzled.

"Your not really use to people saying no to you are you?" I laughed. He laughed back.

"No not really, but why, its just a coffee? I sighed

"Don't you get it Leon? I am not a stick figured size 2, barbie doll, okay. And its not just a coffee. I am not pretty, strong, smart, funny or beautiful."

He rolled his eyes. "Well I don't want a stick figured barbie doll, I want you" he pleaded

"No you don't want me, sooner or later you're going to get sick of me and move on. How do I know this? Because fairy tales don't exist. The hottest guy in school doesn't get with the ugliest girl because it doesn't work that way. So leave me alone"

"You are not the ugliest girl Melissa, it's you that doesn't get it.
"Did you really think I didn't have a pen on the first day of school, I asked for one because I wanted to talk to you, your the only girl I've me that actually wears real clothes and doesn't have red lipstick smeared all over your face, your real Mel... Your perfect".

I was struggling to take in all of this information. When I stood up.

"Well, I'm not perfect, because perfect doesn't exist. But maybe one day you will meet a girl that is perfect. Someone who is smart and funny and kind and beautiful, someone who loves you as much as you love her."

"Melissa, I'm staring at her right now"

I sighed. "I'm not her, now leave, one day you'll realise it was hopeless after all". And with that he left.

Some where in the back of my mind I was begging for him to run back and fight for me, but he didn't. I think I just let the guy I... loved slip away through my very own fingers. And I think it was the biggest mistake I had ever made in my life...

Authors note:
WOWWWW.... I know I'm awful. I thought the song was very relatable to the chapter, go ahead... Listen to it!
Much love
Savingasmile 😘