SteveI was wrong. I hurt her. I should have made this move earlier.
"You kept pushing me, Nat. I didn't know, I am sorry" I cupped her face, "I have always loved you"
She hugged me and I let her cry her heart out. Because now, I would make sure, no tears form in her eyes, except for tears of happiness.
"I'm sorry, I.. I just" she tried to speak.
"Shsh! Let it go, once and for all. Let yours sorrows leave you forever, Nat" I said rubbing her back.
I held her for a while, while she sobbed. She moved back, and wiped her tears.
"Are we good? " I asked. She nodded.
"I should apologize to Sharon, I was too harsh" she said.
"No, apology isn't something the famous black widow does " I said, "let something's reserved only to me. "
She blushed, "Okay, but I am not apologizing for bursting out on you, you deserved it. I am not just a friend "
"You are, and know what? Friendship is a leading step towards love" I said.
"I guess it is" she said.
"So are you saying you love me? " I asked.
"No, that's not what I said" she teased. I caught her wrist and pulled her into my arms.
"Say it" I said with authority.
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Natasha
It was time I tell him.
I stood on tiptoes, even though my footwear put me up. And leaned close to him.
"I love you, Steve. I love you. I always have, I always will. I love you" I said, looking into his eyes, "You are the most important, and most valuable person in my life. You are worth living for"
He smiled and kissed my hands, "I love you too, Nat. I love you too" he said and we both hugged again.
Kissing was beautiful, but this hug was much intimate then anything I had ever experienced.
"Promise me. Promise me, you'll never leave me" I said.
"I promise, Nat" he said, "We would stay, forever together "
"Guys?! " we heard Sam's voice and moved out of the embrace, embarrassed a little.
"Thank God you both confessed, I sure didn't understand you kissing junior Carter earlier. I mean, you both love each other, everyone knew except you two" Sam started, "And I knew this girl is head over heels for you when I first met her, and when you both stopped at my house. Gosh, why did it take so long? "
"Because she practically pushed me towards Sharon" he said, "and then crushed my heart by going to Banner".
"What the hell were you thinking then? He and you? No match" Sam said.
"Cut it. Where is Sharon? " I asked, annoyed now.
"She is fine. Didn't want to disturb you two" Sam said.
"I need to apologize " Steve said.
But I flashed him a look that made him stand still in his place and not move. Good! I like a dominant me.
"Oh come one! You know this woman can't dominate you. She is weak in the nerves for you" Sam said.
"I am not" I protested.
"You are" Sam teased.
Steve wrapped his arm around my waist and kissed my cheek, "I love you, but we shouldn't be rude to others. Should I? "
Okay, fine. He did dominate me. And I hate him for that. I hate you so much that I love you, Steve Rogers.
I nodded, helplessly weak in the nerves. He kissed me at the temple and walked away.
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We were on the quin jet. After working out the mission completely. We decided we three were all it would need. Wanda could stay home. Or where ever she wants. Steve and I didn't like her involvement in dangerous missions anyways.
"I will get the info and then you guys come. As always" I said.
"You look beautiful in this burqa" Steve said.
"You can only see my eyes, stupid! " I rolled my eyes.
"And those are the most beautiful " he said.
"I hate cheesy romance" I said.
"I hate you both" Sam said, "I exist "
We both laughed.
"We are nearing in, Cap. All set? " Sam said.
"All set" I replied instead of Steve, and he smiled.
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Steve
The wait was killing me. Natasha was out there, among enemies for more then a week. I had barely seen her. We only talked through texts. After our confession, we had to be on this highly dangerous and undercover mission, and it was killing me.
I know she is brave and can take care of herself but, I still worried.
"It's okay, its normal to be worried for your girlfriend " Sam pat my back.
"Its been a week, Sam. When is she going to tell us to hit it? " I asked.
"I wish, I knew. She says she isn't there yet. Whatever that means. Anyways, we have something to do, tonight " Sam said, and I nodded.
We were headed towards the headquarters of the gang, and posing to sign a deal with them. Natasha's idea, not ours.
Just then we got a text from her.
I'll be among the belly dancers, veiled, in red, if, in case, you can't recognise me.
"Don't loose it, not now" Sam pat my back.
"How?! " I pushed the table in front of me and it fell, "she is... No, I won't allow it"
"Insecure boyfriend. I am sure she wasn't confessing due to this expected behavior " Sam said, folding his arms, "it's her job. She is an expert at this. Let her do this
"She was expected to remain in a burqa, not belly dance" I shouted.
"Well, burqa must have been tiring " Sam said.
Another text.
Sam, please get hold of my insecure boyfriend. I know he must be crying over my choice of belly dance. But, I can take of myself.
In bold, Sam laughed, and I frowned.
I'll be close to you. I replied. And instead of a kiss or heart emoji. She send back 😑.
Yeah, I was in love with a spy, I need to adjust.
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Aren't they adorable.
I wrote half of this earlier and then I got sick yesterday. Thankfully I am fine now.
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I didn't want you to be, Alone
FanfictionPost infinity war- major spoilers Natasha is the only one Steve has left. Whatever happened in their past has gotten them closer. She is all he has, and he is all she got. In the middle of such great loss, would they find their happiness again.