Getting bullied in school was the worst, and so was committing suicide. But I saw things I didn't see before, I saw the stars, I saw peace, i saw heaven. All I wanted to do now was payback even though it wasn't possible.
After i woke up after a few hours, I was still laying on the restroom floor, I couldn't open my left eye because it was so beat up. I got up and I looked at my hands and they were all bloody, I started to scream. But of course, no one heard. I got up to look at myself in the mirror and told myself that if I go out in that scary hall, people would make fun of me and make my day worse. So I waited in the restroom for passing period to be over and once it was done and everyone was in class, i took a run for it. Once I was finally outside of school, I didn't know where to go or what to do. If I go into a store looking like this, I will probably her arrested because people will think I got into a fight. I mean I don't blame them, I do look like a mess up. So anyways after I left the school, I started walking in a random direction, I didn't know where I was going but I just started to walk. Once I reached the street where my house was at, my parents were sitting on the coach like if they were waiting for me the whole time. I had asked them why they were there and they said that they had gotten a call from the principal that I wasn't in class. But then I had told them what had happened but they didn't seem to care. I knew that they didn't care because, I mean, they're alchaholics and they were probably drunk when they explained why they were sitting on the coach. I honestly didn't care because they've been like that my whole life, I had to deal with this for 13 years, ever since day 1. I ran up to my room to pack some clothes and food in a small bag to run away from home, I didn't feel like going to school the next day so I decided to leave for one night and see what it's like to be away from everyone and all the drama. I set my clock at 11:30pm to sneak out when my parents were asleep, then went to bed. When my alarm went off, I got up quickly, put my hood on and slipped on some leggings. I grabbed my bag and left. I started to walk down the street when I realized that I didn't know where I was going. So I thought quickly and decided to go to the nearby park to look at the stars. Once I arrived to Apple Wood Park, it was pitch black out side and there were no lights around so I couldn't see anything. I looked for a place under a tree to relax and try to forget everything that had happened during the day, I try to forget my parents being drunk everyday. I tell myself every day that everything is going to be okay and I try to forget but in reality, nothing is okay, everything is a mess up in my life. After sitting down by the tree and thinking to myself, I layed down and looked up at the stars thinking once again, "why can't I be dead, why do I have to be here, it'll all be better once I'm away from this earth to be in heaven". After being there for a while, I decided to go home and get some rest till for the next day. I started to walk back to the house and I went up the stairs to go to sleep.
This was my house:
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