The Stars

The Cut

It was late morning when I awoke, my parents weren't home at the time and I was late to school at the same time. I really didn't feel like going to school but I knew I needed my education. I was just scared of what Sophia and her little gang group were gonna do to me today. When I finally arrived to school, it was third period. "Was I that late?!" I thought to myself. As I walked inside the school, it was passing period to our 4th class of the day, and while I was walking, Sophia came up to me and started to laugh because of my beat up eye and my beat up arm. I just looked down and got a book from my locker and quickly left to my 4th period before anything bad happens. I was shaky and scared if what she was gonna do next. After school I walked to the store and got a few snacks to eat at home while I watch some movies. After paying for my snacks I started to walk to the house and once I arrived, i noticed that my parents still weren't home, they were gone and I started to worry even though they wouldn't care for me. Anyways so I sat in the coach and put on the show 13 Reasons Why. To be honest, it was a good show that I could relate to. During the show I started to think and the more I think, the more I wanna kill myself. I usually think about all the things Sophia tells me, and I wonder if they are true or not. Then all of a sudden I snapped. I paused the show and grabed a knife from the kitchen cabinet and rushed to the restroom and locked the door just in case my parents come in. I looked at myself in the mirror before cutting my wrist. I thought that if I started to do this, nothing will change and no one would care. So here I go....*slit* the sound it made when I cut myself. I saw all the blood dripping and my mouth just dropped, everything went black for a few seconds then I snapped again, i felt the pain, it was bad, really bad. I tired to cover it up with a bandage but it bled through, so then I covered it up my sweater and I cleaned up the mess in the restroom quickly and acted like nothing happened. Then I unpaused the show and continued to watch. After watching a few more episodes I realized that it was late and I went upstairs to get some rest for tomorrow. While I layed in bed I wondered where my parents were, I started to think that they didn't want me anymore so then I started to cry thinking I did something wrong. After crying I fell asleep instantly. Then all of a sudden I heard the front door slide right open and I heard shouting from both my parents. I got up to look at the time and it was 1am! I was scared because they were both shouting at each other, I hid under the covers so I couldn't hear them fight. I heard my dad say that it was only for the night, and in my mind I knew something bad happened. I try to fall back asleep not crying but it was hard. Then I fell asleep calmly.