Getting bullied in school was the worst, and so was committing suicide. But I saw things I didn't see before, I saw the stars, I saw peace, i saw heaven. All I wanted to do now was payback even though it wasn't possible.
So you know how I felt a little drowsy, well it was because I had "too much cuts causing a lot of blood to come out" which was bad according to the internet. Yeah I know you may think I'm weird but i searched it on the internet because I was curious of why I was drowsy. But anyways today was a normal day, more bullying, I was so used to it that I would think it was a normal day if I got bullied. Anyways, *slit* again, and again till I had 9 on the same wrist! Then I fell straight to the ground, feeling drowsy again. I passed out till the next morning. When I got up for school, I put on a hoodie to cover all the cuts on my wrist so they wouldn't make fun of me at school and call me suicidal in front of the whole school. So I walked to school and went straight to class. During lunch I obviously sat by myself and then Sohpia came out if nowhere and pulled me by the hair into the restroom. I thought to myself, "again?! What the freaking heck!" Once we reached the girls restroom, she took my hoodie off and luckily I had a shirt under😂 but she saw all my scars. I was scared on what she was going to tell the whole school. Once she saw, she started to call me names and laughed with all her friends that followed. She took a picture of me and sent it to everyone in the school! I was so mad and embarrassed of what the others would think of me. So what I did was grab my backpack and RAN out the school doors. I ran to who knows where but then I ended up in front of scary looking forest. I ran through it because I thought that if I did, no one will find me and my second thought was to just run through it because my heart was beating so fast as I ran and I wasn't thinking when I ran right through into the forest. As I got to the middle of the forest, I started to slow down. I put by backpack down and grabbed the knife that was inside my backpack. And I know your probably thinking why do I have a knife in my backpack, well it was only for an emergency and right now us an emergency. So I grabbed it and *slit* there it goes again, longer than usual and deeper than usual, of course it was more bloody but who cares. Then I wasn't thinking and *slit* I felt pain but it wasn't from my arm, where would it be at? I looked down and the knife was in my stomach, "what do I do?" I thought to myself. I couldn't feel anything but as I kept looking more and more blood kept falling out. This time I was scared if I was gonna live or die, it's either or. I started to stumble and as I did it got blurry and at the same time everything was going slow motion, I've never felt life going this slow before. Then all of a sudden, I fell to the floor and everything went white, whiter than anything you've seen before, like if you were going to heaven, but I didn't know if that was the case for me, I thought I was just going to be asleep for a few days, but I didn't, when I opened my eyes slowly I saw the sun, the big bright sun, like I've never seen it before. It was so beautiful. Then I snapped out of it, I knew I was dead now, and once I snapped, everything was gone, the sun, the grass, the quietness. Then I was standing in the woods where I had killed myself, I looked down and there layed my body, I was tramatized after looking at my own dead body. After looking, I got all these flashbacks of Sophia and then thought to myself, "I think I did this for the best, no one cared and I'm not going to suffer all this if no one cares or even notices me." So I closed my eyes and hopped it would all go away because I didn't wanna stand looking at my body, it was giving me nightmares at the same time when I thought it was for the best. When I opened my eyes I was back on that hill, where I can see the sun, the big bright sun. I was so happy and free but I kept wanting to look back at the past. I knew I couldn't but it kept haunting me like if a dead person was following me 24 7. As I enjoyed the view, and started to wander to figure out where to go, a girl came along. I was walking on a perfect world, literally world.
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You see that other girl....it was the girl that came along. When she saw me, she introduced herself, "Hi my name is Sienna" she said. "I'm Emily" I said in confusion. She told me that I wasn't in heaven, I was confused even more, then where am I? Then she said the most random thing, "I'm 14" she said. "Oh um I'm 13" I said said back. "Okay that's good because i can talk to you about something." She told me. I was so anxious to know what it was about. Even though I didn't know her well, she seemed like a person I could have as my best friend. (By the way when I got to "heaven" even though she said it wasn't, I was wearing this beautiful pink dress with my curly wavy hair, and makeup to make me look nice, so she doesn't know yet that I didn't look this way before.) We walked and talked for the longest time, I felt like it's been the whole day talking to her. Then she said, "I have to tell you something" I responded, "You can tell me anything, I mean we've talked all day" We both laughed. Then she started, "Well to start off, I'm dead obviously, but the way I died was traumatizing..." Then I said, "Trust me, me too. I can't stop looking back at my past." She kept going, "...well I was kidnapped first then got murdered, I was walking home from school one day through the back ally and someone came up from behind and put a cloth over my mouth. When I woke up I was in an underground play house that he created. No one could see it, it blended to the floor. When I screamed, no one heard me, and this how I died, all because of one scream. He dragged me in another room in the play house and started to stab me, everything was slow motion and then everything went white, not black, white. Then I ended up here. And we kinda got killed at the same time if we were on that cherry blossom world. But I'm glad I met you, so I could tell you what happened to me..." Then I started to think, I don't wanna tell her how I died! Then she continued, "...how did you die?" She asked me. Then I started, "Well ummm..."
