Getting bullied in school was the worst, and so was committing suicide. But I saw things I didn't see before, I saw the stars, I saw peace, i saw heaven. All I wanted to do now was payback even though it wasn't possible.
As she asked me to tell my story, I hesitated to talk to her. She kept telling me, "Please tell me, I promise I'll keep it safe...anything is safe with me!" So then I obviously trusted her, so then I started to talk, "Well...i commuted suicide. I was bullied and my parents were alcoholics. I was beat up all the time by this girl named Sophia and her little group of friends. Then one day there was a new boy, he was cute and we got along until he started talking to Sophia, he got caught up in her little clique because I mean, we are in middle school and everyone gets caught up in at least one clique in middle school. So then he pranked me when i was walking home and he was always talking crap about me, so i stopped talking to him and everyone, i stayed away from society...everyday when I had a bad day, I would cut my wrist evrytime. Then yesterday I'm sure you know what happened from there." I didn't want to say much after that, I made the story pretty short, I didn't wanna go in detail because then I would wanna start cutting myself again and I mean I'm in heaven so there would be no point if I did anyways. "Wow I could tell you didn't wanna go into detail, that was pretty short!" She told me. "Well yeah I mean I don't wanna get into detail if I'm gonna start to cry." I said back. "I get it, it's fine you don't have too, I just wanted to know a little more." She told me. "Yeah sorry" I said back. Well anyways we started walking for a while but it was complete silence. It felt weird for a while and she knew it was a little awkward too because then she started, "Sooooo...." and I look at her like if I was annoyed. "Um well we aren't in heaven yet." She started to say. Then I said, "Wait what why?! Where are we then?!" She then started again, "We aren't in heaven because you keep looking back in the past, you need to look at the future, I mean I haven't moved on yet if not I wouldn't be here with you right now..." Then I said, "I'm trying hard to move on and how do you know, you haven't even been to heaven yet, you just said" She started to explain, "Well I had a friend before I met you, we aren't as close as I am with you right now but she told me that she started not to look back and then all of a sudden one day when I was walking with her, she glowed, like an angel, she was so beautiful when she started to rise up, she was glowing with wings and she told me that she finally stopped looking back...she looked at the future and now look where she's at. And to answer your question, we are in the Inbetween, where we can't look back but we are dead and on our journey to heaven." "Wow, I wanna go to heaven, I wanna feel special and forget all about what happened. I wanna go to heaven with you!" I said in eximent. She just stood there in excitement and nodded her head. So we continued to walk the path, it was so different in the Inbetween. It was light and dark at the same time, so basically night time and morning, if you get what I mean.
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You see! I told you! Well anyways I chose to go to the side with light because I know that if I go through the dark, I'm gonna look back at my past, I don't wanna do that, especially since I'm almost in heaven, so I chose the side with daylight because I mean who wouldn't want to see daylight. So we were walking and all of a sudden it became night time. Sienna and I layed down next to a tree, the only tree around. It was pretty big and it was kinda scary well because...I don't know, it just was. The tree was surrounded by the beautiful nature, the hills, the grass, the floweres, the waterfall a little more beyond, and then that beautiful tree just in the middle of it, so beautiful I thought I was dreaming!
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As I lay there next to Sienna who was already passed out, I waited for the sun to go down fully so I can see the stars. Then I thought, wow up here is so different then what I had to go through down there, and I don't mean hell, I mean earth, the place where it all began. Then the stars came out, it was night time now, then in the middle of the night while I was looking at the stars, I heard, "Sometimes there are little tornadoes in space and that's how stars are born." I looked to my side and of course it was Sienna who said that. I just nodded my head and said, "Wow well they are all beautiful and unique." And then it went silent, she passed out again, typical Sienna. I fell asleep a few minutes after her when I was done gazing at the stars. In my dream I was walking to school to confront Sophia but then as I saw her, she punched me in the face and she got in trouble by the principal. He called the police because he found out that I was being bullied by her, she went to jail and I was the happiest person alive! But then I thought, this is all a dream, I wish that happened when I was alive, to have someone else know what I was going through and to do something about it but of course that wasn't possible. So I slept through the rest of the night thinking about how I could've made things better.
