We found alaska

Chapter 3

Takumi's pov.

"Ummm..." I say. How do I tell him? I don't know if I can lie right to his face. How do I even start this. I should have left more time to plan, more time to figure out what to say.

"So you know that I saw Alaska right before she died right?"

"Yes." he says. "You already explained that to me." He looks very impatient and agitated. This really makes me want to tell him to clam down.

"I-I saw her die. She's dead Pudge. She's dead." Tears slowly drip down my cheek.

"You fucking bastard. You call me over here just to tell me that she's dead." He screams, I see the hurt in his eyes. I can't tell him yet, I have to wait. Pudge gives me a final look before storming out of the room. I look in the mirror and fall to the ground. I sit there and cry. I just cry.

Pudge's pov.

"I-I saw her die. She's dead Pudge. She's dead." Takumi starts crying. Why the hell is he crying? Everyone has been telling me that she's dead. I get it. But, she's not gone.

"You fucking bastard! You call me over here just to tell me that she's dead." I can only think of the hate I feel towards him. I scream the most terrible things at him, to make him feel bad. I look straight into his eyes and leave. I run out of his room and into mine. The Colonel isn't here. Thank god. No one has noticed how sad I have been. Alaska would have noticed. My eyes became duller, my thoughts became darker. I have died a thousand times but no has noticed. As Alaska once said  "Y'all smoke to enjoy it. I smoke to die." I grab a cigarette and light it. Hopefully for the last time.

Colonell's pov.

Its 10:50 curfew is in 10 minutes. I turn off The Brady Bunch and head back to mine and Pudge's room. God, I hope he's okay. I enter the room but Pudge isn't here. He's the goody good, he's supposed to be sleeping. I go to the bathroom and knock on the door. "Pudge?" I whisper. Silence. Where the hell is he? I turn around and see a note on our desk.

Hey. It's Pudge.

I don't think you even care enough to read this. Because no one cares about silly, stupid, naive, old Pudge right? Right. Its fine. I don't care about me either. Where do I start? You gotta write a note, that's what I know, This first part is for Laura.

Dear Laura,

You are hilarious you know? We had a bit of fun. Especially with The Brady Bunch. But once that ended I knew you would find someone better. Everyone finds someone better when they leave me. I just want you to be happy when I leave. Please be happy

Now for you Colonel. Colonel, you don't get a "Dear Colonel' It would be to gushy for you. You were my best friend. I loved you like a brother. You handed me my first cigarette and my first bottle of Whiskey. Thank you for that. You have been a great friend to me. I'm sorry, I have to leave you. You'll be okay though. We fought a lot but hey, we made it through together. I remember the first day I met you. I was thinking "God, this kid is crazy." Hell, you are crazy. But you are the best. I have to leave you. I'm so so so so sorry. Remember how we thought we found Alaska? How we kept on looking for her, do you remember? Well, don't look for me. I found Alaska. You'll be okay Colonel. You'll be okay.

Its the motherfucking fox! Hey Takumi. Oh, Takumi. Remember when we had to hide in that shower together? I sure do. You still smelled like coconut. What is with you and coconut? I just want to apologize for yelling at you. I'm so sorry. I have to go and leave. You'll see me soon, hopefully not to soon. Keep living. Keep dreaming. Keep on trying. I swear Takumi you will have a great life. I'm sorry I couldn't stay for long. But, I have to go. Keep me with you.