Breathe

thirty-three

A/N: drama alert!!! This is a convo between my best friend and I (through texting) sooooo this is gonna be long and dramatic and just cringey sorry

"Why are you staying?"

"Okay let me be frankly honest with you right now. No lie is to be mentioned.

"When we broke up, of course, I was devastated even until now it's just not very obvious when you see me in real life"

"I started to feel everything and nothing at the same time"

"The amount of anxiety attacks increased a lot, but I didn't tell anyone but you"

"Then I started to wake up in the morning feeling absolutely nothing."

"Literally, nothing."

"I'd go to school feeling nothing. Then suddenly it clashes with everything. What do I do? I think of him."

"When I was struggling, I remember what he used to tell me and I end up finishing it."

"When the people I love the most stress me out,
I'd tell myself all the advice he told me before and I'd just feel better."

"I have no idea how this is going to coming out but, ever since he left I have been in the worst state I have seen myself in."

"But one thought of him, it all gets better."

"I'm staying because I realised my mistakes. If there's a chance, I want to make it right."

"I'm staying because the pain he's giving me does not compare to the love he's given me for five months."

"I'm staying because I've never felt this comfortable and nervous around someone I love, you know?"

"I'm staying for a million reasons, most can't be put into words."

"I'm staying cause they said if you love someone then you should pull them back until you can't do it anymore."

"But I know when to back down."

"But now is just not the time."

~now that I know the truth, I don't know what to do.

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