Why Me?

Chapter 5

He was here. I couldn't believe it. He was here, in my room, standing right in front of me. At first I was stunned then I wasn't. I quickly got up and ran towards him. I jumped in his arms. I was so happy that my dad was finally home with me. As I silently cried in his chest, he picked me up and carried me to my bed. 

"Daddy I've missed you so much. It's been so hard since you left. I'm so happy your back. You are back right?" He looked at me sadly. He knew what I meant, that he was back and not going anywhere. Yes he was physically here, but he wasn't staying. He would probably be gone once I fall back asleep. "Oh that's ok. I know you would if you were able to. At least you're here now. I'll go tell Mom and the boys."

"No. I don't want them to know that I was here. They wouldn't be as understanding as you are. Besides I wanted to check on you. I heard you were in therapy and have been having nightmares. Why don't you tell me about that."

"Oh ok. I mean there's nothing to tell Mom thought that it would help me get over what happened, but I can't. No matter what I do he is still in my head. Every night I have nightmares of what happened. I was on medicine but they gave terrible headaches. Mom said she would call the doctor, but I don't want to take anymore pills. The sleeping pills give me a headache and the others make me want to throw up. Today my therapist made me talk about what had happened and I don't like it. I feel guilty because I have to tell him what happened but I can't tell Mom or the guys how I have been feeling. I can't tell them, not without you there."

"Hey it's ok. I understand just how you feel. Why don't you try to get some sleep. You've had a long day and school tomorrow. I'll stay here until you're asleep, ok." I nodded my head and got comfortable. After a while I eventually fell back asleep and for once I had no nightmares.

Author's POV~

Rachel finally fell asleep. Castel was so worried about his little girl. She had been through so much and it was hard for him not to be there for her. Castel decided that he was going to leave soon, but he didn't know that someone was on their way up. Just as he was about to get up Rachel's door opened. The two people stood there looking at each other. Then Nikki ran into his arms hugging and kissing him. She was so happy he was home. Then she realised that Castel home. Nikki broke out of the huge and looked at him. Then slapped him across the face. 

"Where the hell have you been. Do you have any idea how hard this has been on your family especially Rachel. Why come back now after 2 months? Does Rachel know your here?" It was understandable why she was so mad. Nikki had been crying the whole time. Castel gently took his hand and wiped away the tears streaming down her cheeks. Then his hands gently cupped her face and locked eyes.

"I know that this has been hard on you guys, but it's-"

"Don't you even say it's for our protection. You know damn well that we can take care of ourselves."

"I know I know I know, ok calm down before you wake Rachel. I know you can take care of yourselves, but  it's easier for me to find this guy if I know you guys are safe. Plus Rachel doesn't need this kind of stress right now. She doesn't need to have people breathing down her neck at school asking why there are cops all around us. We also don't need the cops breathing down our own necks while I hunt this bastard down. I'm pretty sure the only reason he came after Rachel was to get to me and if she doesn't know where I'm at, then she will be safe. Once I know he is either dead or in jail I will come straight home to you. I promise." She didn't like the idea of any of this but Nikki new it was for the best. What Castle was doing was keeping the worry away from everything that didn't needed to be worried about. Right now the family only needed to worry about was if Rachel was ok and getting better. 

Castle and Nikki gave each other one last huge and kiss before he left out the window. Nikki went to close the window and watch as the man she loved and cherished disappeared into the shadows. Once she could no longer see him she went over to her daughters bed. She pulled the covers up to Rachel's shoulders then gave her a kiss on the forehead. 

"Sweet dreams, baby. I promise your dad will be home soon and that nothing bad will ever happen to you again. Your dad will find that son-of-a-bitch and put him in his grave. That trader will be die."