Scars

Chapter 4: Ella/Patty

One year ago:
“Hey baby, there’s all you need in the refrigerator and whatever else it is you want
you just call me okay? Besides I won’t be gone for long”
“Are you sure you wouldn’t be staying any longer, I want you around” he
pouted as he walked closer to her, she couldn’t help feeling the flush of red fill her
cheeks and the way her breathing increased every time he was around her, he’d
always bring a sort of excitement that coursed through her ?
“Easy there tiger” she smiled as he held her waist and leaned in to kiss her lips,
she skillfully slipped out of that one and went towards the door
“I told you Logan I’ll be back in an hour, I just need to go pick up something
from the office and I’ll be back soon enough” she smiled at him as she grabbed the
keys to her car
“I’ll miss you baby” the man named Logan pouted, and his eyes glowed from
the teary expression he had, she then walked over and gave him a kiss on his cheek
“It’s just an hour Logan” smiling as she walked out of the room
She’d been in her car driving to her office while thinking about how everything
had turned out perfect for her from the time she’d met Logan and how they’d hang
out so many times on a wonderful starry night and how he told her all about the
constellation while she looked into his eyes forgetting if she ever had any trouble
in this world, he’d just kiss her and she’d be on cloud9 wondering how perfect
Logan had been for her, They’d been together for a while and she’d anticipated any
moment he’d propose to her, the thought made her squeal in excitement as she
drove to her work place at 12:00 midnight.
She’d just met a red traffic light and had to wait patiently for it to turn green
even though her office was only a couple of blocks away and she’d only driven
forty minutes so far, she decided to use the few seconds to check for her phone
when she’d just realized that she forgot the keys to her office she cursed under her
breath and turned around, she thought to herself well Logan will like the sound of
this as she smiled while driving back to her apartment, she'd missed him already
even though she'd only driven for forty minutes it still felt like a week without him
around and with that thought she drove back to her apartment hurriedly and arrived soon enough as she walked up to her apartment opened the door and began
humming a song while she walked into the living room.
It was probably 1:00am by now and Logan would be fast asleep without her
so she went over to the bedroom as she tiptoed gently while she bit her lip in
eagerness of wanting to scare him as she walked into the bedroom, she couldn't
believe her eyes it was like a horrible nightmare her knees grew weak it almost felt
like she was getting paralyzed as she watched Logan kissing and caressing a girl in
her own bed so much that it made her so disgusted she wanted to throw up that
instant, they were moaning on top of their voices and she could barely even a
produce a sound due to her current shock
"Wh...a..t, what is th..is?" she managed to speak out as sorrow and pain filled her
voice, though her voice was faint, the two stopped immediately and shock washed
all over their faces
"Baby…I can explain"
"What do you both think you're doing in my apartment?"
"..Baby. Please calm down" Logan was now dumbfounded not knowing what to
do as he grabbed the sheets to cover himself up
"Get out of my apartment this is instant! or you'll regret why your sorry whore
ass was ever born" Ella shouted enraged as the girl grabbed her clothes and ran out
of the room leaving Logan alone to finally explain himself
"Why…Logan? Why...what have I ever done to you?" Hurt filled her voice as
tears streamed down from eyes sliding down her cheeks
"I... am so sorry baby I don't know…what I was doing"
"You get out of my room Logan right now, take your things and leave!"
"Please Ella let me explain"
"Out now Logan!!" she commanded, and Logan began laughing so evil it made her
shiver in fear, why was he laughing this way?
"You never were good enough" he laughed in reply as his face shifted morphing
into her one of her ex-boyfriend’s before Logan, the face kept laughing as she back up at the wall
"No!!"
I woke up to my surroundings so calm and quiet, the city lights shining bright
from my window as I looked everywhere, I finally realized I was having a
nightmare which would be the 4th in a row now.
It’d stopped for quite some time but I don't understand why I was dreaming about
this again. I woke up in cold sweat despite the chills that filled the night, I turned to
check the clock and it was 4:00 am so I reached my hand and picked up my I-pod
and began scrolling through my playlist and since I'd been so depressed lately patty
had noticed that I'd been playing Beethoven, so I decided hearing something
different this time so I selected Ella mae Bowen’s "Holding out for hero" as I let
the music flow through my body while lying in bed sulking in the hurt of the past,
each time Ella strummed the guitar it made a fresh wave of tears want to stream
down my cheeks as I remembered the betrayal as if it hadn't been for quite some
time
"Where have all the good men gone and where all the gods? Where’s the street
wise Hercules to fight the rising odds? Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery
steed? Late at night I'd toss and turn and dream of what I need"
I found myself crying as thoughts rushed through my mind, I thought of what
happened earlier this night when the guy that crept up to me dancing, I asked
myself why did I hear Logan's voice? it kept bothering me to think that after one
year I still wasn't over this tragedy, where was my hero? Where is he right now?
When will he save me? I let my emotions flow till I made the sheets wet with tears,
after few minutes of crying I finally averted my gaze to the Main-line and I walked
up to it and heard Patty's voice leaving a message or maybe I should say messages.
"Hey...it's me again just checking up on you" or "... I hope you're not listening to
Beethoven and sulking in your pillows again, call me when you can"
I was so worried I had to place patty in a position where she always had to worry
about me, I looked out the window and realized it was almost dawn, I thought to
myself rather than sitting here crying my eyes out I'd better get me a warm shower
to clear my mind of all this heartbreaking scenarios.