Demons Mixed With Feelings (Karmagisa)

Chapter 8

Karma's POV

This is the first time that I have no idea what I should do. I've never been this fucked up in the head before. My emotions are all over the place. The way I saw Nagisa look at me when I tried to kiss him made my chest hurt. Is this heartache? Is this how it feels to be rejected? I've never been in a relationship before, because there wasn't anyone who I considered an equal. People asked me out, but no one interested me. Well, not until Nagisa came into my life.

How can someone so dangerous also be so innocent at the same time? During our "fight" before Karasuma interrupted, my muscles were tingling from excitement. I think the adrenaline from the fight hasn't died down yet. No, this isn't adrenaline from the fight. My heart just won't calm down at the mere thought of Nagisa. Ugh, feelings are hard. How can people deal with relationships? This is why I've never had them with anyone before. What's the point?

Nagisa's the point. Having him. Making him mine. That's why I can't fuck this up.

I honestly don't know what I should do. I wanted to kiss him. I still do, and I almost did but he had to stop me. The look he was giving me while I was on top of him. The blush that appeared across his cheeks as I got closer to his face. He wanted me just as much as I wanted him. I know I'm right, so why did he push me away?

Should I have kissed him anyway and see if he'd kiss me back? Should I have run off without saying anything to see if he'd run after me? Or should I have told him to kiss me and see if he'd actually do it? I don't know. There's too many things I could've done, probably should've done, but I didn't.
I can only deal with the decision I made.

I ran away with a shitty apology. Not even sure if he was able to hear me. I'm certain of one thing....

He didn't come after me.

???: "KARMA!"

I turned around to see who called for me. And it was.....

Nagisa's POV

He still hasn't come back. What if I hurt him? How could I when it was just an assignment from Irina-sensei? We were supposed to seduce, or flirt with each other just for practice. It wasn't real. Or was it? Nah, it had to be a joke. Karma could flirt or joke around with anyone. I can't let my guard down just to find out it was a joke. That pain would hurt me more than isolation.

Plus, why would he have feelings for me if all I've done was be mean to him, or push him away? That doesn't make any sense. I wasn't trying to get his attention. I wasn't aiming to have these weird feelings in my chest and my face constantly being set on fire when I'm around him for too long.

Awwwww crap. I might have feelings for that red-haired devil. Doesn't matter, because I won't let myself fall for anyone. Falling in love makes you do stupid things, reckless things, then say "Oh but I love him!" Hell no. That's not who I am. Being careful with every created action is how I function. Someone else can say that crap. Not me though.

The class continues to whisper amongst themselves, sometimes taking glances at my direction.

"Why did Karma just leave like that?"

"Nagisa probably sunk his fangs into the dude's neck like a vampire would to be seductive."

"They're both like demons anyway. Why should it matter? Karma will be fine."

I am sitting right behind them, so they know I can hear them, right? They could just turn to me and ask me themselves. Kayano turns around to look at me after finishing up with Rio. She mouthed, "Are you okay. What happened?" I nodded my head and mouthed back, "It's fine. Karma just left."

She nodded then raised her hand to be excused to go to the bathroom. She gave me a small smile before heading out the door. I need to watch out for that one too. It's not just Karma who's trying to lower my guard.

What do they hope to gain by getting close to me? I understand why humans would want me, but why them? They're a God and Goddess. Is it because of my bloodlust? I don't get it. I'll either confront both of them later, or just ignore their existence. If they were even remotely smart, then they'd do the same.

They class continues to gossip about Karma and me. I'm getting irritated, so I asked for Koro-sensei's permission to go to the restroom. He granted it. I'm not really going to there. I just need to leave, so I'll probably go to one of the fields outside. I like the scenery of this mountain. The sight of the flowers of numerous colors: blue, purple, pink, yellow, and red. The smell of rain from the clouds floating around us, since we're so high up from the ground. All of it takes my breath away.

It's weird that Irina-sensei disappeared though. I made sure not to make a sound as I walk through the halls, because she could appear and ask why I'm not in the classroom. I wouldn't be able to say that I'm heading to the bathroom since they're in the opposite direction. Karasuma-sensei was still in the classroom, but I'll still have to be cautious of him, since even I couldn't sense his presence.

I made it outside. The warm air hitting my face, causing a genuine smile to take place across my lips. As I said, the sight is beautiful. I head over to the field on the far side of the mountain. Then I see Irina standing by a cliff next to the waterfall. Why is she here?

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Hmmmm what's going to happen to our Karmagisa couple? Hope you enjoyed this chapter ^_^ See you soon, my little Goofballs~~~