psychotic • jin

part 3

may i repeat, i am NOT falling in love with my therapist

He just has, beautiful chocolate eyes that are welcoming.. and big soft hands and a smile that could cure anyone from anything.

fuck

i am

Who thought that such a psycho like me can find love, hm?

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Its 8:43 P.m and i already wish Dr. Seokjin would come back, but hes already left to his home, to a wife and kids or a girlfriend that loves him very much at the very least.

i lay on my cold, stone hard bed and try to push the mental pictures and thoughts of my dreamy- i mean, therapist away from my mind.

Finally when i give up on moving him out of my mind, i have fallen asleep, ready for his presence in the morning.

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I groan as i wake up, my shoulders aching from no support  on them, just to realize i have to wait more hours until seokjin comes again.

i can already hear my thoughts again

screaming at me, telling me to rampage and murder everyone, everything that has hurt me, they shall suff-

"Cut that out!" you yell loudly at 6 in the morning.

you shrivel up into a ball and cry as your thoughts get louder  and louder, hoping time will go faster.

°°°

i hear a loud screeching of metal as my food tray slides in, some kind of fucking mush that i just push away, back out of the door.

that means i have 30 minutes until Dr. Seokjin comes. fucking  finally.

•••

I hear the playful knock he has made for my door as he jingles his keys and unlocks my fucking brick as a door.

but this time he has an apple in his hand, why so?

"Good morning Y/n, how have you been?"

a tears fall down my cheek as i rub them away quickly

"they're back, again, this time, louder"

he frowns and sits down in front of me as i sit on my bed, vigoursly wiping my tears away.

"have you eaten?" he wispers

i shake my head and he hands me the apple.

but before i grab it. he kisses it

"a 사랑 사과, eat, itll make you less stressed out."

i grab it and instantly take a bite, but with that, he starts to sing again

"이별이란 아프고 더 아픈 것 같애
니가 없으면 나 안될 것 같아~
사랑해줘 사랑해줘
다시 내 품으로 와줘"

i feel myself instantly  relax

a angel, definitely an angel

i slouch and sigh in relief as he rubs my back and my voices slowly fade away, just like that

like magic

"y/n" he says suddenly

i didnt even realize he stopped

i turn my head towards him

"does my voice help you?"

i instantly become shy, still, frozen, looking into him with  worry that he'll think its weird and want to leave. but i speak the truth anyway

"yes"

short chapter sorry

)chapter incouraged by my girl layla that loves this book very much, finally updated it lol, your welcome ♡)

~케나