psychotic • jin

part 2

Its early morning, guessing around 6am.

its silent again. for once.

but then the squeaky wheels of the food cart some strolling down the hallway. i fucking hate it. it makes my head hurt

you know what doesn't?

Dr. Seokjin

Dr. Seokjin is different. but i like him. not the same harsh and forceful doctor you used to have. did they really think yelling at you to "stop being fucking crazy" was going to stop you?

they forget we are human beings too.

the cart stops outside my door, i can see the shadows of the heels of the lady that delivers our breakfast, lunch, and dinner.

she opens a small window in my door, pushing the food in and quickly closing it. like im going to bite her hand off. pathetic

•••

its not 9am and im excited. Its time for Dr. Seokjin's visit. i may be overreacting, im excited after ONE DAY with him? maybe i am actually crazy.

Hes right on time. fumbling with keys and pushing on my heavy door, so it'll open.

i see him and i dont know how to react

you cant act like you like him, he is not your 오빠! (oppa) but you dont hate him, what are you doing (y/n)! i talk to myself this time. it wasn't the voices.

"Okay (y/n).... Today i want you to tell me about what you like, what are your interests?"

"M-my interests?"

"Yes"

i thought for a hard moment
"im interested in listening to people
노래..." (sing)

"singing?"

i nod

Dr. Seokjin chuckles
"Okay"

and suddenly

"내 곁에있어 줄래? 약속 해 줄래?~
내가 네 손을 놓으면 너는 날아가서 부서 질거야...
무서워, 무서워, 그거 무서워..."
he sings

and its the most beautiful voice ive ever heard. it makes all my worry wash away like watercolour.

after he stops, he looks at me, smiles and grabs my hands.

i almost suffocate

"Did you like that?"

"나비 ... 나비처럼 ♡~"

he sings with his eyes closed... and he sings with such grace
w-who let you into this hell you pure, handsome man?
are you perhaps an angel? I think

He smiles again after hes done but looks down. his hair falling over his face. and he looks like a flushed boy.

but then something snaps me out of my trance

he kisses my hands and i flinch away slightly

"i-im sorry, did i hurt you?"

i cant possibly be falling for him, this is the second day. just strangers.

"n-no.. y-you.."

"are you an 천사?" (angel)
"how do you sing like..... like.... t-that..."

he takes a seat and shrugs slightly.

"i dont know. some gift"
"a gift for you too, since you like it so much"

he rests his chin in his hand and i truly take in his features. theyre so pretty.

Dr. seokjin is so pretty.

fuck. i am NOT falling in love with my therapist.