ᴄᴀɴᴅʏ • ʙᴛs ɪᴅᴏʟ ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ [HIATUS]

Chapter 6 -Meet the gang-

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**Your POV**

I woke up feeling really comfy under the covers. 

'Wait. This is not my room!'

I quickly sat up from my sleeping position and looked at the room with awe

'Where on Earth am i?'

"I see your already awake'

I looked at the beautiful girl with a beautiful brown locks yet looks very mature

'Is this Minseo's Mom?' i thought

"I'm not that brat's mom, silly" she exlaims

"Oops, sorry" i laughed awkwardly

"Its fine.." she assures me

"So, can i ask, where am i?" i asked politely

"Well your at our house"

"Our?" i asked confused

"Well, i guess i also have to introduce you to our gang"

"Gang?"

"Yep. Me, Seoyun and Haeun live here together"

My mouth was wide open

"Yah! Don't drool"

'Ah, i remember, they live together'

"So Minseo told you that we lived together? Dear, you don't need to be very vocal" she laughed

"Oh, i'm sorry, it's pretty natural to me since i always talk alone at my apartment...." i trailed off

I suddenly gasp and covers my mouth cursing myself internally

"It's fine, really.. But you live alone?" she asked

I sigh

"Can i trust you?" 

"Of course" she said while she massages my scalp...

"Well, my father got a new family and they were so happy. I didn't dare to butt in cause it's fine to me. I'm used to be alone anyways" i began

She just hummed and let me continue

"He treated me well. He gives my needs. Money, food and a house. My new family also treats me well as well as my older step-sister.... Its just that...... money is not that i want. Love, care attention. Like having  new family.... But i guess, i'll be just alone forever" i laughed bitterly

"I wanted love. I wanted attention. But i refuse to ask for it, things are better when my feelings are just bottled up. So i won't be a burden to people. Like my family back then. If i was just aborted maybe they won't force themselves to go marriage......" i continued unaware that 2 girls have already listened to the conversation.

"That's why i treated everyone coldly. I'm afraid that when i get someone close to me, it will just use me. In the end i'm just alone.. I'm afraid to the fact that i just wanted to be like a butterfly, wandering around freely. It was able to suppress its feeling by flying.... And that's the opposite me" 

"Everyday, walking down the hallways picking up books that are needed, always studies, ignoring hate comments from people go home, eat fix myself and sleep. Its my daily routine. The routine was the same 12 years back. For those years, i lived in the world where everything lefts me.. I didn't revenge on anybody. I didn't revenge to my father, my mother my second family. I didn't.. SO THEN WHY DOES EVERYBODY LEAVE ME ALONE IN THE END?!?!?!?!" With that i burst out crying, letting my emotions overtake me

"Holding up your feelings so that you can't show your vulnerable side is so hard.I kept everything to myself. I can't show who i am. I can't show anything that makes me feel numb inside. I don't even get hurt by people who is mocking me, because i'm used to it. What is the difference is its your father. HE, is supposed to support me. HE is the one who is supposed to cheer me up when my mom died... But i guess, i'm just living in a fantasy"

After all my ranting, i saw Minseo hugging someone quite older than her, but not as old as Haeun.. 

"Don't worry we are here for you.." Haeun told me

"I know.. You won't leave me.....right?"  i asked desperate hidden in my voice.

"Of course. So are you living with us?" asked by the girl i don't know who it was

"What about we introduce ourselves first?" Minseo suggested finally calming down

"Okay. As you may know, I'm Kang Haeun, 22 years old"

"Heya! I'm Kim Seoyun, 20 years old. We are both home-schooled and we are finally attending college with Minseo!!" Seoyun enthusiastically said.

"And you also know me, Park Minseo, 18 years old.." she says, smiling faintly

"Hyun Y/N, also 18 years old" 

"Sooooo, are you still thinking of living here?" Seoyun butted in

"I'm not thinking about it..............i'll live here with you guys" i smiled

They squealed like Japanese School Girls and then hugged me.

"I can't wait for you to move here!!" Minseo said  

**3rd Person POV**

"I'll be back Y/N, i'll be back" she said

"I hope you missed me cause i missed you so so much" she added

"Dear, your clothes are now ready! Make sure you'll pay a visit!" Mum said

"Of course Mom"

"And don't forget to protect Y/N okay?" 

"No need to remind me that"

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What a boring chapter...