Poems

Everything I didn't do that day

I didn't say I love you,
I thought you would be there when I got back.
I didn't kiss your head,
even though I did the other day.

I didn't rub your belly,
I thought there was more time.
I didn't rub your head,
even though it was right there.

I didn't know until after,
after dad had picked me up.
I didn't know that you were gone,
because I was at school.

I didn't know you had another episode,
like the one the night before.
I didn't think you would leave,
at least not that soon.

I didn't think you would be taken away,
at least not on that day.
I didn't cry at all,
until I found out.

I guess you had to go,
even though I didn't want you to.
I fed you before I left that morning,
like I always did.

I didn't know you were leaving,
until you were already gone.
Dad told me when I asked,
but I think he wanted to wait and tell me.

I didn't say goodbye,
I wish I could have.
I didn't get to be there,
and I wish I was.

I wish I was there when they put you down,
just to see you one last time.
It's been a year,
and I still cry.

The kitties miss you, 
but I think you know.
All of your things are away,
and in the garage.

I thought we had more time,
I thought I would see you after school,
I thought you would leave later.
But you didn't

You left before I could tell you,
before I could do it anything.
I wish you were still here,
maybe then I'd be happier.

I miss you,
we all do.
I hope you're happy,
where you are.

I hope that monster is with you,
and you're playing around.
I hope to see you again,
my time around.

I didn't get to say goodbye............

2003-02/24/2017

Rest in Peace Jasmine

Sleep now baby, you're with monster, you aren't in pain.

Rest, my other best friend